"This is one man's true story of the unspeakable things that were done to him as a child and his rocky journey through adulthood to find God, peace AND his true self. "
A Cracked Pot
For all too many people, childhood was not an idyllic time -- it was a time of facing unimaginable fears, resulting from horrific abuse. But as Jim Cyr’s story courageously reveals, the wounds of childhood not only heal, they can lead to the loving grace of wisdom, and a heartfelt desire to help others achieve wholeness, too.
Now a minister and storyteller, Jim suffered with five congenital birth defects that required many painful and humiliating surgeries, from his childhood through his teen years. At the same time, he was sexually and ritually abused as a young boy. And, as an adult, was diagnosed and treated for Dissociative Identity Disorder. To cope with familial abuse, Jim split into fifteen different personalities. “Sprouting” protectively, these separate identities filled the cracks caused by numbing, long-term violation, and helped him to survive.
Despite it all, Jim Cyr’s memoir is filled with hope: candidly sharing all stages of his healing journey (from self-destructive, unconscious drives, to awareness, to the slow mending of his cracked heart and mind), it offers inspiration, as well as the hard-won advice of a survivor. Jim’s will to live, and his honesty -- despite a crushing childhood -- offer a shining path of light for all those who suffered a childhood of abuse, and wonder how they will ever manage to feel whole.
From the Introduction..
"Everyone suffers with some kind of crack in the pot of self. For some, their cracks may be hairline fractures caused, perhaps, by the trials and tribulations of daily life. For others, their cracks may be gaping crevices caused by physical pain and suffering. And for still others, their pot of self may have been shattered by trauma and abuse—so they’ve been left with mere shards.
By telling my story, my hope is that it will encourage you to break your silence and seek help. For I know that is always the first step on the path of healing."