Trenton and I had a tumultuous relationship. I felt that he was all that I deserved because I had made sacrifices to be with him. But one day it became crystal clear that he would never be able to love me like I deserved when three months before our wedding he dropped a bomb on me.
Darnyelle A. Jervey
Incredible One Enterprises
If You Understood My Past, You Would Understand My Praise is a memoir, based on a true story and chronicles my path of self-discovery. When you look back over your life, do you get caught up in a praise or do you hang your head in shame? Have you been there, done that and gotten the souvenir t-shirt for all the mistakes that you've made? Are you sick and tired of being sick and tired of getting the short end of the "love" stick? Welcome to my world. If You Understood My Past, You Would Understand My Praise is a book about looking for love in all the wrong places until one day I woke up and realized that I deserved more!
An excerpt from IYUMP YWUMP:
Aaron made his way to Bear that Friday evening. We decided on dinner and a movie; however, we never made it to the movie. After we ate, we stopped back to my house so that I could get a jacket and put on a pair of jeans. When I came back downstairs, Aaron was buck naked in my living room.
“What the” I started but he cut me off. It was a good thing, too. I was only on the cross with Velcro and it was about to be snatched off so I could give him a piece of my mind.
“Let me explain. I know that you said we would not have a physical relationship but I want you so bad. Just hanging out with you tonight and being so comfortable with you makes me feel really good about our future. I figured that if I let you see what you’d be getting, you would change your mind and we can make love.”
I couldn’t believe this fool. Make love? I didn’t a bit more love him than the man in the moon. Granted, he looked magnificent; he knew good and well that I was not interested in going against the Word. We had that conversation five days ago. The way I saw it, there was not a man alive that I ever met that was worth losing the kingdom for. So, Aaron had to go.
“Get dressed.” I commanded in a stern voice. “I invited you into my home and you have disrespected me. I made it clear to you how I was rolling and you have blatantly disregarded that and my wishes. I have no desire to be with a man who does not value what I value. You clearly do not respect what is important to me. I will not settle for what you want to give me because I know that I deserve more. I am sorry but you need to leave and we,” I glanced up at him and tried to focus on his face. “We are through.” I finished.
I turned around and went back upstairs toward my bedroom. I sat on the steps completely out of view from him and waited for him to leave. Once I heard my front door close, I went to my bedroom window and peeked out to see his car backing out of my driveway. “How dare he disrespect me in my own house?” I shouted. “Thank you Lord for providing a way of escape as you promised in your Word.” I sighed then shrugged my shoulders as I added, “Well, another one bites the dust.”