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Reality romance… They met on the internet… Life quickly unraveled… She was on a collision course with fate… He became her guardian angel to alter her path… did he make it??? Find out…
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Customer Review - Amazon October 2009 "John Peter Davis shares his three years experience of a relationship with a woman he met on the internet. The twist and turns of life and emotions will hold you captive to the surprising ending. I also found it very refreshing and compelling to have this adventure told from a man's perspective. The author manages to make you feel as if you are right there living the events with him. In a time when internet relationships are more and more prevalent, Brick Wall will make you stop and re-evaluate your initial feelings...but then again, the lessons learned would apply to any relationship no matter what the origin. Definitely a five star plus book. I would highly recommend the book as an excellent gift for any occasion."
Excerpt
Introduction
My head is spinning. I don’t know where to start.
I ask myself, “When does it stop? When will things ever be normal? What is God doing to us? There is only so much a
person can handle. Why Lord, why?”
This isn’t a story that I ever wanted to write but it is a story that had to be written and the responsibility fell on me.
If someone had proposed this as a plot for a TV reality series, no one would have believed it saying it was too far fetched.
If I hadn’t lived through it myself, I don’t think I would have believed it either.
It is about a very dear friend of nearly two years whom I met on the internet, my best friend Toni.
The identities and locations are unimportant. What is important is to share with you how much can and did go wrong for a
person by making one mistake. That mistake eventually reshaped my own life and future. You will see how devastating
the domino effect can be on everyone involved.
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The adventure begins. This is a completely true story. Writing it was started before the final events unfolded so
relationships have changed during the almost three years that this took place.
I wanted to call it “Money Does Buy Happiness” because it was caused in most part by the lack of several thousand
dollars.
I met Toni on the internet in spring 2005.
I am a widower although it didn’t start that way. I had been married for over twenty years when I decided that I wanted a
divorce. Before the legal proceedings could finish, my wife died in a car accident during a freak snowstorm on the first
night of spring 1998. She was only a hundred yards from the driveway when it happened. Instead of getting divorced, I
became widowed.
Life takes some bizarre twists.
I lived near Buffalo and Toni was from The Shore (central east coast), a separation of some four hundred and fifty miles.
She also had been married for over twenty years and was trying to get out of the now unhappy marriage.
After we met, she lived through an almost devastating chain of events lasting well over a year.
Our relationship is intertwined throughout the story which is fortunate because she has told me all along that she doesn’t
know what she would have done through all of this without me by her side.
If I say I “took care of her,” I don’t mean it in any sexist way. We are equals in our destiny. I say destiny because our two
paths merged into one. I strictly mean it in the sense that I took care of her when she couldn’t do so herself.
Perhaps what I meant earlier when I said that “money does buy happiness,” was that the lack of money can create
unhappiness and in this case hardship causing extreme mental stress to the point of a near mental breakdown.
While this story will sound at times like it can’t possibly have happened, trust me it did. I wish it hadn’t, for her sake,
because I cared so much for her and it hurt to see what she was going through.
My memory isn’t the best so I may miss some important points or will have to intentionally omit some. At times it may
seem like I am bouncing around in time and I will be.
That was my greatest problem with writing this story - how to sequence it. It isn’t effective just writing individual chapters
on each different situation that arose. That would take away the intensity. The way I present it illustrates how confusing
and jumbled days often were and besides, the problems usually overlapped and so couldn’t be treated separately.
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Part One
Spring 2005. From the first day that we started speaking in a chat room Toni and I talked on the internet for hours every
night, some evenings as many as seven hours.
She was living unhappily with her husband but wanted to get out on her own and move to New England (NE) to be near
her son and her grandson who had been born the previous November. Her daughter still lived at home but was old
enough to be out on her own.
Toni’s son was not on speaking terms with his stepfather. The son was born in her first marriage when she was just
seventeen and her husband died just before his son’s first birthday. How traumatic this must have been for a young
woman.
Her son became her life. She carried him everywhere and together they faced the world.
I explain all this to show how much she has gone through in her life. The fact that she raised her son at the age of
seventeen, initially on her own, attests to how strong this woman is.
That is one of the things that I loved about her. Actually, there were many things that I admired – her strength, her
independence, her intelligence, her humor. Basically her everything.
It is important to state those qualities that were so evident and strong in her because over time they started to fade or
withdraw into hidden corners of her personality.
Seeing her strengths fading is what has made me realize the gravity of her situation.
Now without much analysis, here is what happened. I will let you make your own judgments based on the facts.
Perhaps afterwards Toni will be able to fill in the gaps or make corrections. I say afterwards because as I write this
(December 2006) she is on her way to the hospital to try and check herself in for some mental health care.
It hurts me to be stuck here over four hundred miles away from her and let her go through this alone. The fact that she is
doing it shows her strength of will and character to recognize the need and to take corrective action.
It would take great courage to go to a hospital under these circumstances. I doubt if I could do it, at least not on my own.
She is having her dad drive her there and just drop her off because she doesn’t want to put him through the ordeal of
waiting to see what will happen.
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