However you lived your past, today you’re the key to changing your future
Genre: Dark Fantasy, Sci-Fi, Contemporary, Paranormal, M/M, Lesbian Ménage
Through time, there’s a lot of changes.
Through lives, there’s a lot of mistakes.
The only bond between time and lives is destiny.
Sometimes, you can recognize your changes and your mistakes…even your destiny. But ARE YOU WILLING AND READY TO ACCEPT IT?
“I think it’s our destiny to try and find each other.”
“Still, I wonder why, especially since it’s never such a great ending between us. We’ve lived more tragedies than anything else.”
“That’s because you have trouble with following rules, sweetie.”
“Rules you established without ever consulting me.”
“It wasn’t your decision to make,” Leon observed coldly. “Besides, they weren’t hard to follow.”
“Really?” Sean raised his head. “Then, let’s make it that you fall in love with me for a change, so that I can leave you…or worse.”
Leon toppled him with his weight, pinning him down on the bed. “Listen, sweetie, this time we’re two men, so it’ll be easier to put aside the limited heterosexual logic. We can finally have fun without commitments, ties or bullshits like love.”
Sean felt a little hurt. He valued his emotions as his most precious assets. Still, he knew Leon would not take kindly an argument on this subject, so he pretended to agree. “As you say, lover.”
“Glad you agree, sweetie. You’ll see, it will be better than all the other times.”
“Yeah…maybe.” Sean sighed and stretched luxuriously, feeling the burning sensation from the raw cuts. ”One thing I’m going to miss is your magical healing potion that worked miracles on those wounds.”
“Actually, I’ve got it this time as well.” Leon got up and rummaged through his briefcase. “Here it is,” he said, taking a round container. “Directly from India.” He opened it and rubbed delicately Sean’s back.
“India? What were you doing in India?”
“Looking for you, as a matter of fact.”
“And where did you go look?”
“I started from the cities, then worked my way into insignificant villages. Wherever I went, though, I didn’t live the rich man’s life, but made the streets my home.”
“Thought you’d find me in the gutters?”
“No, I knew we’d be equal somehow just like all the other times. Besides the obvious reason of looking for you, going to India had to be a spiritual journey, which did not include luxuries or rich man’s paradises. Many times, I had to sleep under the stars, living off people’s charity like the beggars that are so common there. In the end, I went hungry most of the times—“
“Didn’t you bring money with you?” Sean asked, appalled at the scene Leon described.
“Not a lot. I told you. I wanted to experience the people and the place. I wasn’t about to be the usual rich guy who goes to India thinking he’ll find a new consciousness while in fact he only wastes India’s precious resources. I was looking for a guru, a spiritual guide. I wanted someone who would tell me I wasn’t going insane because you really existed and I’d find you soon enough.”
“If you were so sure we’d meet eventually, why did you need a guru?”
“At the age of thirty-two, when nothing had happened, I began to have some doubts. That’s why I needed someone to tell me I wasn’t crazy.”
“I guess you found him at last.”
“I traveled around India for a year, going from city to city, small villages to tiny settlements, visiting hundreds of ashrams, without finding what I sought. There were plenty of gurus, naturally, so I dutifully stopped with everyone, but none seemed to understand what I wanted. Finally, when I had almost lost hope, I came across an ashram, set in the middle of nowhere. It was off the usual routes, a tiny community living off the goodness of the nearby farmers. I remember being tired, weary, sick of my useless journey. Then, as if I’d called him, the guru came out to meet me. He was a shriveled old man, so tiny I could have broken him in half with my bare hands. But he wasn’t afraid of me.”
* * * *
“The one you seek exists,” the guru told him. “It’s your missing half that calls you.”
“Master,” a disbelieving Leon was about to fall on his knees, “what are you saying?”
“You’ll find your missing half, one day, when you’re ready.”
“I’m ready now. I’ve been searching all my life.”
“Even more than that,” the guru assured. “But each time you’ve ruined your chances for true happiness.”
“I don’t understand, Master.”
“I’ll make you remember, but it will be only the beginning. Your journey so far has been to seek what’s old. From now on, you must move forward. The new awaits you, but only if you’re ready for real change. Remember: however you lived your past, today you’re the key to changing your future.”