Caught up in a world of lies and betrayal with an abuser, not to mention a roommate who is a glutton for punishment, Kayla is on a journey to defy all odds regardless of her poor choices
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My Own Space 2
Kayla is in love with Jeremy until she finds out he is an abuser and a cheater. She tries to move on but continues to get involved with situations against her favor. Kayla winds up caught in her own lies and deception once she discovers she is pregnant. Then Kayla decides to move to Georgia and pursue other opportunities only to be disappointed again. She roommates with a co-worker and eventually finds out the roommate only moved with her to be closer to a married man who is vicious. On top of that, Kayla is dealing with issues of her own that are life changing once she gets involved in another relationship with a street pharmacist. She ends up backtracking and moving with a serial cheater and liar who has more than a few skeletons in his closet.
Kayla sat across the dinner table and stared deeply into his amazing eyes, which were fixated on her. Every word he uttered had her mesmerized and she could not believe she had found someone so wonderful and charming. She had met Jeremy threw a mutual friend at a birthday party about four months ago. She had heard he was the extravagant type and did not mind taking care of his woman. Her friends and family had their doubts about her dating a man that was five years older, but she did not care. He treated her like royalty. She also could not believe he had made reservations at the Paradise Restaurant, where couples had to book a month in advance to get in the VIP section on the balcony.
“You know you mean the world to me, right?” Jeremy asked, as he softly caressed her hand to the sound of violin melodies playing in the background. It was almost too surreal.
“I think you are the most wonderful man I have had the pleasure of knowing,” she smiled, revealing her perfect white teeth.
“You think or do you know?” He asked.
“I’m sorry sweetheart, you know I know you are the best.”
“Well say that then,” he jokingly responded.
A few more minutes went by and the waiter brought the dinner to the table. Jeremy had ordered them both the seasonal special with lobster tails and a house special dessert to top off the dinner. After eating, they walked to the outside balcony where the stars dazzled the night sky in the cool spring breeze. Jeremy pulled her close and kissed her softly on the forehead as they looked upon the city lights.
“Has any other man ever brought you here?”
“Of course not, why would you ask something like that?” Kayla asked.
“No reason. I just want you to see that your every wish is my command and I am willing to do anything to keep you happy.”
“I must say that I am extremely happy to be a part of your world,” she smiled and reaffirmed.
“I have something I want to give you,” he said as he pulled a small box from his pocket. Kayla gasped as she opened the box to retrieve the diamond ring that lied in the center.
“It’s beautiful!” Kayla squealed.
“This is my promise to you, Kayla. I will always be here for you and nothing will ever come between us. I love you.”
As he slid the ring on her finger, she looked into his eyes and told him she loved him, too. Although she was twenty and had not dated much after she and her high school sweetheart broke up, she knew that Jeremy would be the one she would marry. At that moment, she knew she was in Heaven.
After a few months into dating Jeremy, her relationship turned into a dictatorship. He always wanted to know all the specific details of her whereabouts and details regarding anyone who would accompany her. The basics of her getting dressed became a hassle since he did not approve of any of the clothing she wore. According to him, all her friends were whores, including her, when she hung out with them. If nothing went his way, all hell would break loose, which would result in verbal and emotional abuse. He made sure to tell her in each argument that her needs did not matter and she had no idea how many other women wanted him. Nevertheless, after every argument or petty disagreement, he would buy her something big or take her on a shopping spree. They would have enduring sexual escapades afterward then the argument was over. It became a sick routine.
It was Saturday afternoon in the middle of May and the weather was perfect for an outside barbeque. Kayla was sitting on Jeremy’s couch in a white tank top, some blue jean shorts that were high thigh length, and her legs were propped against her chest. This was one of many nights she spent at Jeremy’s place. He had a roommate-style apartment with his childhood friend, Travis. Travis was about 5’7 a little short for her taste, but he had a stout muscular build and golden brown skin with hazel eyes and a clean baby face. He was more of a laid back prep type person who kept most of his opinions to himself. She always thought the mystery in him was attractive and very intriguing. What bothered her about Travis the most was that she had never seen him with a woman over to the apartment, or period.
“What do you guys have planned today?” Travis asked, as he tried to sway his attention from his fixation on her legs.
“I don’t know, Jeremy was talking about a barbeque a minute ago, what you have on it?” she said in a joking tone, trying not to make it so obvious that she noticed him checking her out. He slumped on the lazy boy chair and briefly searched for the remote that was on the end table.
“I got five cents on it.”
She started laughing and said, “Oh, I guess you just want one barbeque potato chip then, huh?”
They both were laughing at the silliness of the thought when Jeremy walked in from the bathroom with a towel wrapped around his waist and stern look on his face. He was looking sexy and she was just about ready to continue the early morning escapade with him.
He walked over near Travis and said, “What’s up dude?” as he sat on the opposite end of the couch away from Kayla. He briefly looked at her and turned his attention back to Travis.
“Dude nothing, are you firing up the grill or what?” Travis asked.
“Nah, I don’t feel like getting dirty again,” he said in a cynical tone as he cut his eyes towards Kayla. She was confused by that statement, because she wasn’t sure if he referring to her or just his daily cleanliness in general. She didn’t want to start an argument in front of Travis, so she kept her thoughts to herself. Jeremy and Travis continued their conversation and Travis ended up convincing Jeremy to barbeque by volunteering to go to the store. Travis left the house, so Kayla figured this would be a great time to be sexually spontaneous with her man. She edged over to where Jeremy was sitting. She gently placed her hand on the knot of the towel that was holding it together. Before she knew it, Jeremy pulled back his right hand back and slapped her on the side of her face, pushing her downward to the floor with full force. It seemed as if the echo of the huge THUMP echoed from miles around. He stood up over her.
“Whore have you lost your mind? Don’t be trying to get freaky with me while you got your legs all up in the air in front of Travis, you’re a stupid woman.”
Kayla did not move, because she was in total shock. Jeremy had never been physically violent with her, so she didn’t know what to do. He continued his verbal assaults, went in the back room, and slammed the door. Kayla lied there still stunned. She didn’t cry right away since it didn’t really hurt her physically, but the thought of him intending to, did. That thought alone made her begin to sob in tears. Luckily, she had left her keys and her purse in the front room. She attempted to dry her face and leave the apartment immediately before Jeremy came back.
She went home and thought about what had happened. She didn’t really have anyone to talk to at the time, since her mom was working overtime and her brother, Jay, was out doing who knows what. Kayla’s oldest brother, Tony, lived out of town. Besides, had she told anyone in her family, they probably would have tried to kill him. Her mom was the strong-willed independent type who had a zero tolerance for low class men. She would attack a man at the drop of a penny. Apparently, she didn’t inherit that trait. She ran her some bath water and sat in it for about an hour and a half, thinking to herself what could she have done differently. Maybe she should have had on Capri pants, or perhaps blue jeans. She thought that maybe she should have just stayed in the back room until he got out the shower. In a sick way, she started defending his actions. She got out the tub and noticed she had six missed calls. One from her girlfriend, Brandy, and the other five were Jeremy’s calls. She decided to call Brandy back first since her conversation with Jeremy would probably be intense. Brandy was a very beautiful, strong-minded individual who did not tolerate bullshit either. She was about 5’4, with a stout figure and her bleached blonde hair match hair yellow skin tone.
“What’s up girl? What are you up to?” she asked, as she answered on the first ring.
“Nothing, just tired of this stupid boyfriend of mine.”
“Girl, I know what you mean, some guys are pitiful huh, what did he do this time?” She wasn’t sure whether or not she should tell Brandy what really happened. She knew she would have been like, “girl I would have picked up something and busted him straight upside the head.” Then, she would have asked what did she do and Kayla didn’t want to feel like a punk by telling her she just walked out the house. Kayla quickly answered with, “Girl, nothing, the same old crap, what are you doing tonight?”
“Girl, me and Shay going to the club, you should come with us.”
Kayla knew if she said no, Brandy would somehow convince her anyway, but if she said yes, she might miss Jeremy’s apology date, so Kayla told her to call an hour before they left. She hung up with Brandy and called Jeremy back, but he didn’t answer.
Later, Kayla decided to go over to her cousin Dee’s house so she could buy her some liquor since Kayla wasn’t 21 yet. Dee was married with two kids, and for the most part, Kayla thought she was cool, but before she got married, Dee was a drop-dead whore. It was still a mystery how and where she met her husband, but since he got her into church and eradicated her whorish ways, Kayla’s family really didn’t care. Every time Kayla went to her house to visit or for any other reason, she would always give Kayla some spill about drinking, going back to school and other pep talks Kayla didn’t want to hear. Every time Kayla thought of telling her to get the drink, shut the hell up, and go home and tell it to her husband, freaking hypocrite, you’re buying me this alcohol for a fee. Of course, Kayla never did, besides she didn’t know anyone else who would buy it for her.
After not hearing from Jeremy the remainder of the day, Kayla decided to go out with Brandy. She put on her black tights with a long loose black and gold Baby Phat shirt that was with some black open-toed heels. The golden streaks in her hair, which hung down past her shoulders in loose curls, accentuated her outfit and skin tone. She was dressed to kill. If Jeremy didn’t want to treat her right, she knew somebody would. Just as she was walking out the door to her car, the phone rang.
“Why didn’t you answer your phone the first time I called you?” Jeremy said, in a cool but firm voice. She thought to herself that he had completely lost his mind after that stunt he had just pulled and then to call her talking crazy.
“Uhh, dude, after what you just did, don’t you think your first words should be some type of apology?”
“Kayla, where are you?” he asked as if what she said didn’t mean anything.
“Oh, so I guess you didn’t hear me?” Kayla responded.
“Kayla, that was your fault, trying to be all seductive in front of my homeboy.”
Kayla was getting more pissed by the second, so the only response she could think of was, “Bye Jeremy.”
“Kayla, you better not hang up this phone, baby, where are you?” She guessed the guilt of what he had done had finally sunk in. “Going out,” Kayla finally responded.
Jeremy paused and all she heard was a click and then dead silence at the end of the phone. Jeremy had hung up.
She knew it wouldn’t be the end of Jeremy for the night, so she drank heavily. She normally did not smoke, but a friend girl of Brandy’s had a dime bag. She wanted to be faded as hell. They walked in the club and all eyes were on them. She thought it was because they all looked fabulous, but maybe everyone noticed how faded they were. When they got to the bar, Kayla and the girls drank even more drinks, at other people’s expense of course. They mingled around and died laughing at the jokes some of the fellows were telling at the bar. A hot dance song came on and Kayla went crazy on the dance floor as the girls cheered her on. After that song, she pretty much stayed on the dance floor the entire night. She had forgotten about Jeremy, the incident, and everything else. She was having fun.