True Life Account of my first 10 years of life, following Abandonment by my Birth Mother and a failed 6 yr and brutally Traumatic first adoption.
“FAILURE TO THRIVE”
A two-time Adoptee, I was abandoned twice in my early childhood years.
First, by my birth parents at just 1 ˝ years old, when they simply walked out the front door of our house.
Having left me in the bottom of a laundry hamper, it was approximately 2 weeks later that my nearly life-less body was discovered by authorities.
Non-Responsive to Human Touch, I was diagnosed as "Failure to Thrive".
Defying the odds and the predictions of the medical staff that treated me for the next 2 years, I was finally healthy enough for permanent family placement.
Being Adopted at the age of 3 1/2, should have marked the end to my neglect and abuse...
But it was only the beginning of a brutal 6 year period.
Forced to endure a daily routine of torture and abuse, starvation, ice baths, and isolation from human contact at the hands of my resentful adoptive mother, this first adoption was finally terminated at age 9 1/2.
This is my true-life story, depicting the graphic details of what became my daily early childhood reality, following abandonment by my Birth Parents.
For the purpose of achieving some level of Closure and Validation that my damaged Soul so desperately deserves, I invite you to read along as I force myself to re-live the traumatic childhood experiences that were for me, the darkest years of my life.
Follow the events of my life, as I have struggled to defy the Statistics
and Predictions of those who claimed that I would:
never survive in this world;
never be able to form a nurturing bond with another human being;
and those who claimed that I was doomed to become the Abuser to my own Children.
I encourage other adult survivors of abuse to empower yourselves through Education;
Acknowledge that there can be Quality of Life, following prolonged exposure to Early Childhood Trauma;
I hope that you will offer to me, your unconditional support, as I now must face my greatest of life challenges, in learning how to survive the long-term debilitating effects of PTSD, PTED, and BPD (a CO-Morbid Diagnosis).