i've not forgotten you
neither am i trying to ignore you when i do not stay in touch
i am only protecting myself from heartache
cos i know how easily i could fall for you
so i build walls to keep you out
i try not to cherish any hope
and would give anything to disillusion myself from thinking there can be"us"
there are too many obstacles and there will be too much pain to deal with should there be "us"
wish i could dictate to my heart what to feel about who
then i would let it see you as a friend,whom i cherish and can think of without any heartache
maybe telling you how i feel will let the pain subside
but i am too much of a coward to
for fear of destroying this friendship which i would rather have
so i fight myself to see you as nothing but a friend
i pray the day comes when i can breath without pain
at the thought of you,till then...