Based on the life of B. Keith Jones, "DILLIRGAF?" is the first book in a 3 part series, followed by The Roomie Do Me Blues and All I Didn't Say. This is one man's journey from self-hatred and destructiveness to love and spiritual enlightenment.
DILLIRGAF is life as seen through the eyes of Ian James Foster. This Kid is a mind-blower. He's young, gifted, black, and gay, as the day is long, coming of age in 1970's Indianapolis, and it isn't easy. It's Ian against the world from day one, and he ain't having it. Wild would definitely be an understatement when describing his antics. Recklessness was just another word. On the surface it may appear that Ian is headed for total disaster, but what lies ahead is a journey of love, growth and enlightenment. Join him on the roller coaster ride that is his life. Follow him as his path takes each new and more ludicrously exciting turn. Share his joys and his pain, as his quest to simply be, leads him on a mind blowing cross-country adventure of self-realization. Ponder the many questions he asks. When you enter Ian's world you're in for the ride of your life, so fasten your seatbelt and get ready to trip.
Being gay isn't easy no matter how you look at it. Regardless of what anyone thinks, I have yet to meet a single individual who made a conscious decision to become homosexual. I have personally had to struggle with the reality of what I am my entire life. I've been degraded, attacked verbally as well as physically, and at times, even denied the most basic of human rights, all just for being whom God created. Oh, I can hear all the gasps now. How can I possibly say that God created me this way? I can say that with just as much conviction as all the people who say he didn't. You see, I happen to know who I am, and my sexuality is an undeniable part of who I am. It's not something that I can put on and then take off like a winter coat.
I have personally walked through a fiery furnace for most of my life time, and like so many others, I spent years on a self-destructive path. Drugs, alcohol, crime and even a couple of suicide attempts have all been part of my modus operandi. I wanted to destroy myself because I couldn't understand myself, and didn't know who I was for a very long time. The people who were supposed to care and have compassion, as Jesus did, simply didn't. Instead they chose to stand in judgement of me and my "lifestyle".