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My descent into mania. This book contains my thoughts, beliefs, and feelings during the time of my illness. This book is not a memoir, it is written as it happened. It is interspersed with journal entries from my father. This book may be offensive to some readers, but remember, this is a true account of what happens to my mind while suffering mania.
This isn't like anything you've read about mania and bipolar disorder. THE HOLY BOOK OF ILLUSION author Jessica Dolin says, "Instead of writing a memoir which is full of remembrances of when I was 'crazy,' or writing on how it is cured, I composed a book during my mania - at the time I was most 'insane.' It reveals the hidden parts of myself that most people keep inside - too dark for anyone else to understand. Emotions are looked on as weak and evil things to be 'cured.' We must push all of our feelings inside. I couldn't hide them. As my thinking became more disordered the more out of phase I became with everyone else. Everything you will read gives insight into my progressive dysfunction as well as my struggle to recover."
Jessica's father also shares his journal entries during her episode. He shows the side of rational and normal thought while he watched her lose her mind.