I am a retired AF Msgt, who is battling end stage heart failure. In my first book, "Death:Living To Talk About it" I lay out all of the background on me, and treid to answer the question, "why at the age of 35 years did I have a heart attack so severe that it ended my military career, nearly ended my life many times and changed my life forever. My next project is chronicalling my journey living with end stage heart failure and the process of being put on a heart transplant list. Now that I am listed, I write about what it is like to wait for a new heart.