There is no words to decribe dissapointments, unloved or be hurt by someone you loved or build a future with, this was a time in my life where I just wanted to let go of all the things that brought me to my knees begging and pleaing but never happened and I have to live with it, as no one would understand or care anyway.....right

In life we need all to be loved, I had that once as far as I can remmember But slowly my love for u has faded away I gave u the best that I could in life and in marriage I'm at a cross road And have to make a choice I don't want to hurt u But I can't go on like this The emptyness, whithout love Someone to fullfill me in someway Please understand that I need to go Give me the freedom to have love someday again and to have joy in my heart Set me free and let me spread my wings I'm not asking for much but I have to think of me now and what I need, I know this isn't easy to hear as u think u love me or need me by your side, But I'm dying and longing within myself I don't want to hurt u but by being here is hurting me inside and in the end u will be hurt even more than now, I gave u the best I could, sacrafise more than I ever thought, loving you was easy as I knew what u needed and wanted of me, But never did u try to see or hear what I needed from u, Nights I cried myself to sleep, Wishing and hoping that oneday u will, The times when I needed u most, Something else needed u more, did u ever really care or love me, Never did u hear my calling out to u, Never understood the pain I had inside, Never did u try to see how desperate I was just to hear u say I'm here for u and we will go through this together, I just wish it didn't have to get to a point where darkness will cloud my life and need to break away from someone who meant the world to me before, I don't hate u I'm just very dissapointed for being the fool I was for allowing u to walk over me and abuse me in the way u did to me Pls understand but I need to break free and find someone who will appreciate me and love the whole of me and be there for once for me when I need someone