This is an excerpt from my mothers journal from 1982

Situations, conditions and circumstances in this life are as different as combinations of DNA, and those combinations are themselves part and particle of life situations, conditions and circumstances. At the same time, all together they are the tide and flow of all. Together, they all seem, perhaps are, random, but there are clusters of genetic regional, environmental partial determinants that constitute adventitious roots, "magnetic" force, weight of fate.

Unconscious and overt intellect move in concert throughout on one note: struggle for assertion. The hall mark of assertion is desire that springs from need - need to be, to become, to win. Like Tantalus (son of Zeus), the urge continues forever, but unlike Tantalus' experience, success occurs, at random, and the goals reached for are concealed sometimes from view, seeking is blind. And when the goal is obtained, it is sometimes abominable and would be rejected, but to reject is often impossible because the unforeseen reality of the goal is a trap.

Written by Addie W. Williams in her journal July 11. 1982.