Refusing to be a victim is personal empowerment on a very deep level. It's not always easy, but in the end, that refusal changes a bad situation into a triumph of the human spirit over adversity.

 

I woke one morning to discover I had been imprisoned by an unseen jailer, for unspecified crimes. There are no visible walls or boundaries, but for the last 19 months, I'm  captive. There is no privacy in this place, nothing I do goes unobserved. For months I tested the limits of this new environment, enraged at being trapped by people I cannot see. And got punished for it, each and every time. I'm a POW in America, hostage to a war I don't understand.

Trying to define the intial terror and rage is difficult to put into words. My captivity extends beyond the bounds of the virtual world, it extends to my phones and my home, which has been entered at least 3 times. The stress of seeing my family, and friends hurt just for contacting me, almost broke me. I stopped writing, talking much and cried constantly. The burden of knowing others were being harmed because of me was heavy indeed.

Slowly though, I began to realise that the psychological walls were being abetted by my own behaviour. And that's when things began to change. Since law enforcement has it's own way of dealing with these things, I realised I needed to get used to my captivity and understand what was happening. That meant reading and researching extensively on a variety of subjects. From how this is being done, to books on how not to be a victim.

I made an informed decision that I would no longer fight these people, but simply live within the boundaries. As a result, I no longer get upset over strange things on my computer, including the 60 Trojans resident here, or worry about being observed. I figure sooner or later it will be stopped. In the meantime, I will move on as best I can.

This is basic survival, and I am a survivor. Some battles can't be won, and when faced with a situation like this, only the strong recognise when to bend. To those doing this to myself and others. Enjoy your sick twisted war games. I choose not to engage with you on any level. You hurt my children which is unforgiveable, planting sick porn on my autistic son's site. One day.... you will know what it's like to be a REAL captive. Until then, I choose to walk in the sunlight, and ignore your viciousness.

I want to publicly thank JTTF Agent Allen Agor for caring and really listening to us. There are a few good men left in this world after all. Refusing to be a victim is personal empowerment on a very deep level. It's not always easy, but in the end, that refusal changes abad situation into a triumph of the human spirit over adversity.