I guess I'm another one who wants it all. . .but only what money can't buy.
When I am in San Diego, with my aunts, uncles, brothers, nieces, nephews, cousins (okay, family), all I want is to move back to San Diego, its beautiful beaches, cool weather, and most of all, the comforts of my family. Since my mom and step-dad died, I have missed the connection of big family gatherings on holidays.
My closest cousin does call me and I call her. My niece and I visit with her two darling girls. But I get lonely in mean-old LA-- no family, many friends.
When I am here in MO, I am farther away from my beloved San Diego. Yet, the neighbors are friendly, the setting is so peaceful, and it does feel like home. I am closer to Ohio (son and family) and North Carolina (daughter) in terms of driving distance or a quick flight.
We humans (especially women) are convivial creatures, always seeking a circle of friends and family to share and cherish. I don't know how to replace the hole in my life from when my mom died, except that being a true grandparent would help. I don't think we're moving to Ohio any time soon!
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