As I reflect on my writing, I consider what I want to accomplish. I think of books getting published and being able to reach alot of people with the message of the compassion Jesus has for us. I think of speaking in front of people and sharing the joy and faith I have. Yes, I think of all of that. And, yes- maybe making a little money.
I kind of laugh at myself as I dream these dreams. I send out queries and manuscripts. I wait for answers and know many times the answer will be no. Yet I just need a couple of yes's. I have some good possibilties. Yet I quickly pray and turn to Jesus and I realize, I do need to share the love of Jesus. Mainly by my actions and how I live my life. Part of that is my writing. I need to keep working and getting it out there. But after that - it is up to Jesus. I leave it is his hands. I always ask that the manuscripts be his will. If it is his will that a certain mansucript not be published right now I pray that the pusblisher follows his will.
After all Jesus know the big picture. I do think eventually I will get three or four manscipts publshed. But it will be in his time, not mine. Do I practice this faith well every day? I can answer a big no to that.I get frustrated waiting sometimes. But I know that I am not the only person who sent in a manuscript and they are very busy.
So, what do I want to accomplish? I want to do the will of Jesus. Even with my weaknesses and ego. I know I won't follow him perfectly- but I will try.
In Christs Love
Michelle~