should keep trying. Your efforts to reach out to others have caused

you pain and you feel emotionaly tired and no one understands or

cares. Well, even though I might not know you personaly, I do care!

Many years I was where you are  now. It is an awful feeling and my

heart goes out to you.If it is alright I would like to let you know what

has helped me.

I found a counselor who not only cared but challenged me. He helped

me realize I am loveable and it was up to me to help myself feel better.

It wasn't anyones else's responsibilty. I kept waiting for a person to save

me and make me feel loved.I had to reach out to others who were

'huritng. Forgetting my own loneliness and helping others, made me

feel alive and have a purpose. The people I was trying to help depended

on me being there each day.

I also had to take care of myself. I started to exercise and eat healthy. I

tried to make sure I had enough sleep at night.I reminded myself that

I deserved to take good care of myself.I was worth treating myself with

respect. I cleaned my home so it was a nice place to come home to

after work. Howvever, I have to admit- tI am still working on that

one.

My spiritualty has helped me enouramously. Knowing that Jesus 

loves and understands me even before I say  word. Knowing I am

created to use the gifts he has given me. The love he has shown me

and experienced is not be be hidden but shared with everyone I

meet daily. With Jesus I am never alone!

You must walk own path. Your spiritualty may be different than mine.

I have repsect for whatever belief you have. I feel we can learn much

from each other.My hope is that you will feel the joy and love which I

have. I wish you much peace and happiness in life. You deserve it!!