Today has been one of ‘those’ days…. and I’ve been having quite a lot more of them recently. Finished beading the BearPaw stone, decided to make a leather bag for it, since it is a ceremonial gift. Put NSEW lines in beads on the front (or back, whichever is best), used sinew to wrap, didn’t separate the strands, although it would have finished up nicer… (next time!!). Almost decided to make another bag for this stone, with better lacing, then decided that was manipulative/ego trying to take away heart thinking. So now it sits, wrapped in its bindings, waiting to be given.
Have already begun to think about the next stone, black crystal basket; another gift. Going to pace myself, first getting a couple of the bead trays sorted and cleared. There’s way too much clutter in the bead shelves; cannot remember what is where, and sometimes, what project… “was that mine???” …. Total memory losses lately.
Anyone else experiencing similar? “Yessss!” shout all Aspects of this writer, “We’re ALL feeling it. Not to worry, is just echo on our lines of communication. Will improve as we ALL assimilate and energize the Prime One… Think of an electrical circuit. Connections become open to new/old connections—old incarnations as well as all those probable and multiple probable worlds -- ‘other’ aspects of ALL.”
Could make one dizzy if one would think upon such for too long. Hah! Pretty words. I’m feeling dizzy and spacey more often than not… but for now have chosen to love the pure immensity of it. I choose to dance.
And for me the dance is the creativity. When I dance, I create. When I create, I dance. Round and round it goes, though not always in a circle.
It has been interesting to interact with other aspects of my own self recently. It’s like pulling a dress over my head, pull it down shake it a bit and then let it settle itself naturally to my/our form. Sometimes when I look out of my eyes, there are memories that are not ‘mine’ but are familiar just the same as though they were mine.
Today was reminded quite firmly about meditation –regular meditation— This time I hear and heed.
We both did much reading, thinking, feeling, talking this morning… was not our usual plan… we were going to go to spa early a.m., but still not there…. We DO live in the moment, like fireflies on a dark night. Zip! There! Hah! … but eventually we accomplish a great deal, and nearly always now, only what is necessary for the next phase of our path. Organization improves daily, and our lives become easier—less time spent searching for lost items. We have learned to bless ourselves by taking the time to put things of like kind together, and to return them to their places when we’ve finished our tasks. Not an easy task in itself, but only in the beginning. Today we are conscious of our ‘duty’ tasks, but they are so integrated within our being that there is no negative connection.
The electrical system is on pure GO.
Communication between us has opened far beyond what was ever possible, in previous times. It’s almost as though we are each being reborn, second by second, quantum growth for us both. It is becoming obvious to us, that we have each chosen to largely ignore the signals of what we know to be heart thinking, and it is only in the past week or so, that we have made tremendous strides forward into loving thinking and relating to each other. Sometimes the words/concepts are not easily heard. The old way was denial. Now I find myself being more clear about expressing what I really want to say, and I see it mirrored in him also. But the best part of it is the listening, even tho tonight I suspect he would not at all agree with me.
I did choose tonight to tell him he could tell his story, but not to me—I didn’t want to hear it for the umpteenth time, verbatim. His first was hurt feelings, some irritation at my lack of ‘partnering’, but Snap!! He changed from that aspect to his More Than One aspect(s), who understood it was not my intent to hurt his feelings. We have only recently been able to experience these situations without emotional scarring from/to each of us, once more, an Old Tape…. One we’ve thrown out in the garbage, and mostly, there it stays.
I bask in the loving magnetics that surround us, our home, our area, our very world. It gets easier, day by day, for us to each get back to it when we’ve strayed into judgments. Although, sometimes I forget— and must remind myself:
I AM THE MAGNET FOR WHAT I WANT IN MY EXPERIENCE. WHAT I THINK ABOUT IS WHAT IS ATTRACTED TO ME, AND THUS, IS WHAT I RECEIVE….EVENTUALLY.
Been reading hints and tips from others on this path but ALL say must only listen from within, and that is sort of where I am going with this daily Magnetics thing. It is my place to write what I want without the censoring that must occur for any other eyes to see. Somebody is always offended at one or another chosen words/concepts…. Have never figured the reasoning on that one… since writing is such a personal magnetic, when that magnet is too heavily influenced by other magnets nearby, tends to disrupt the intensity of the message.
Fuzzy thinking? Dunno, yet. Better yet, do NOT think about it at all. Just meditate on the answer and I will receive the question.
The answer upon which to meditate is—
What do I really want?
I think I know
But then I remember
I don’t know anything for sure.
I don’t even care that I don’t know.
Not the usual response, one sure to create ripples in the pond, but I repeat—
It is not necessary to know or even to understand.
It is important to BE in ecstatic creation.
How much and how often, and what in the world is actually being discussed here?
That question will shock the usual thinking mode but will land softly upon the resonant heart. It is Bliss. It is Ecstasy. It is Love. It will eventually become Pure light.
And dancing with creativity, unlimited possibilities, no fences or barriers. ALL dancing with self, with ALL.
No one said any of this has to make sense. It IS my magnet after ALL.
Copyright by Judith Leigh Bailey
June 17, 2006
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