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What a tangled web we.................... 10/7/2008 8:57:17 PM
When we first learn to decieve. Seems that only time will tell what is in your future these days. One day is sunny and then comes along a COLD hearted front of a family member to attempt to put a damper on ones accomplishments cause they are only bitter that they've made NOTHING of their own life. So, by putting others down, it makes them feel better about their own pathetic and worthless life and the only option is to put them in their place. Not being able to make a marriage work, not fulfilling your career goals, and turning 50 in one month will do that to a person I guess. But at least I can say that I have accomplished a very important goal in my life. Not only to get my first book published and have it help others who are suicidal and depressed, but to let others realize that they are not alone, and not be like some lame people, who think that people should just be able to put the past behind them and not blame their parents for how they were raised, especially when you are that person who was the "Angel" of the family, could lie and have your parents believe you are telling the thruth, and get away with murder (literally), but to later be ratted out by your own mother, as she makes the comment that YOU were the one that caused all the trouble in the family in your teenage years, right to my face. So, you would not understand the other side of the cold dark room of despair, from being beaten every other day, and verbally abused your entire childhood, that was all out of your eye sight, and now growing up to live in your own little world of denial and still living it to this day. So sad to be 50, and still not be able to accept the fact that ones parents may not have been the King and Queen that you wanted to them to be in your eyes, when in reality...you became them in the end...and you are now one of US>
