A difficult woman is a problem only to people who expect her compliance.
What she notices:
the joke
the tone
the pressure
the small crossings
the no she is asked to swallow
She is not confused.
Her body catches the pattern before the room calls it nothing.
Coercive people do not need a woman to feel nothing.
They need her to distrust what she feels.
They call her dramatic when she names the pattern.
Difficult when she stops helping it stay hidden.
Politness becomes her alibi.
The body keeps the evidence.
She stops turning her discomfort into consent.
What comes back: discernment ... anger ... authority ... SELF-RESPECT
The "no" refuses to kneel.
She trusts what her body knows before the room agrees.
Difficult is often the first name given to a woman who can no longer be arranged around someone else's comfort. -Lavinia Wilder
FURTHER NOTE TO SELF: These really are notes to my "self" because I fully know that "anger turned inward is depression," and I ain't got any time for that kind of stinkin' inner thinkin' at this point, in this last chapter of my life. Me, myself, and I ... me, myself and my nervous system are here to say, "NO spells, f*** off with that BS!"
My body knows some shit! Ain't keeping quiet. Even further note to self: Live it out loud! In all the rooms in the house!
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