JE VAIS ALLER EN CANADA POUR (PENDANT?) DEUX SEMAINES! CETTE DIMANCHE.  My extended family is sweetly worried. Quel suprise! They say, pourquoi?  I say, to visit a writer-friend I know online and meet some of his friends.  They say, but what if you hate them? Interessant, je pense a moi-meme. They don't say, but what if they hate you? which is far more likely.  If I hate them, I have learned a lesson about technology, about email.  If they hate me, I come home, as planned anyway. Nothing lost but money. And time. Come to think of it, that's a lot.

   I haven't had a vacation in ages and life is running me down. Still, I worry. Not about them. Not about me. About what I could be spending the money on. Like charity.  Charity begins in the home, mon pere avait dit toute de fois. Well, I have a family.  If I get much more exhausted, I won't be able to do anything for anyone. Though I could send the money overseas. Perhaps I should take a vote, although I already have the passport and ticket. Aller? ou rester ici? To be, or not to be? Exactly where?  No, no votes. A majority of one.

  I love to fly. It's so meditative. I'm going to try and ignore my host and hostess and write a lot. I'm sure they'll love that. More to hate. I had a dream that I went to Canada and the authorities followed me home into a living room I have never had.  They were all angry with me for something I did in Canada. They never would tell me what it was. Perhaps it was prescient. I'll find out. But a whole country mad at me? That's a new record.  In the dream, because I had to get my daughter off to bed, I never found out what it was they wanted. Maybe they just wanted me to have a bad dream.  Is it possible for dream figments to engage one in a nightmare on purpose? I doubt it.  I'm still trying to interpret.

  Meanwhile, I will have my computer and will stay in touch.Write.  Peut-etre I'll even have quelque-chose a dire, a ecriver. Of course, I have to get up at 4 AM Sunday, and don't fall asleep until 2 am as a rule. So I don't know when I'll actually wake up. In general and in particular.