(If you have ever read any of Anne Rice's Vampire tales then maybe you'll understand this)

Ah Louis.....
How I love you
And yet....I hate you
I love your goodness
I hate your whining
All you do is whine!
After the eternal kiss
I felt your blood flowing through me
I felt almost happy again
But I'll never let you know that
I'll never let you know how much I envy you
Your happiness
Your hate to kill
I look up to you
The way you retain your human charm
I miss it
I'll never let you know how much I miss her
The one sentenced
I blame myself for her death
God I miss her
I miss you Louis
I miss you so much it brings tears to my eyes
When was the last time I cried
I forget
But I'll never let you know these things
I'll never tell you anything
Except for one thing
I love you Louis....