TELL ME 3 LITTLE WORDS

Even if you don’t mean it, say it to me like you do.

Even if you don’t believe you ever will, say it to me

I want to believe that. I NEED to believe it.

Say you are a swarmed nest of misery without me

You can't think straight. Lost.

You’re  dysfunctional without me close by you

You’re not even half of yourself

You’re absolutely nothing without me

Because that’s how I feel without you.

Say its mutual. Please.

That will make me happy.

Happy that you are unhappy without me too.

Are you?

I hope you’re answer is yes. If not don’t be honest to me.

Say you’re smiles are like mine. Empty. Fake.

Flash fake smiles at your funniest friends and niece,

Just to get by your Tuesdays, Saturdays, Workdays,

Schooldays, Homedays.

They are all ‘Alonedays’ without my text, my call, me.

Your attention won't stand still

Your world stop spinning. Stands still.

My heart is cold, lonely, and grey. No. Not grey.

Black. Pitch black and empty and dark. Black.

Hope yours is broken and paining and crying and bleeding.

I wish you lose the energy I lose to go on at days.

I want the hurt to be equal between us.

Hurt as bad as me. As hard as me

Say you smile when you remember my stupid jokes,

Because I smile remembering your pretty face smiling at my stupid jokes

 We both were wrong. We both were stupid.

We both are hard-headed.

You won't apologise first, and I won't either.

Foolish pride and self-esteem. We have a lot.

You won't admit you wake up seeing my face,

Cuddling me even though I’m not there.

Then I won't admit I went swimming.

Swimming in sorrows. Drowning in regret.

I wet my pillow. Emotional. You soaked yours with tears

Thinking of how good it was.

A thousand goods, all down the drain,

For one wrong.

A fair trade.

Loneliness hugs you tight at nights and you think of our

Slow, deep, soulful sex.

Think of the big long hard explosive orgasms

Think of the love, then say,

It kills your heart to think I did that to someone else

Because I can't damn well go on thinking of if you ever did someone else

Please say the three words.

Don't say much, just three words,

Call, text, facebook, whichever way you feel

But please tell it to me

Tell me you miss me,

Tell me you miss me too.

I miss you.

I really miss you boo.

<3