Trust (Not) by C. A. Webb

I know what I said---
And I lied.
That's right: I lied.
Lied about not enjoying the bond we created through just conversation
And the sensation from satisfaction I felt through just what we said.
I lied about wanting just to enjoy you,
When our adventures together sometimes totalled three of us and not just two--- and I said I didn't want you all to myself.
I lied when I looked in your eyes and told myself I didnt want to fantasize about what it would be like to wake up next to you.

I guess more than to you these lies were told to me because it's hard to believe I could see myself feeling this right now in my life.
What we've created has elevated my desire to just enjoying you to truly exploring you and what you really mean to me.
So trust not my words always but the evidence that remains when my guards are down.
And understand the vow repeated in my heart everyday in your presence that no matter what comes our way---or what I might say---, I honesty want you around.