What If

Actually

What if we’d have actually met

Even now

Many years after

Thinking of our improbable love

Even though logically

We both knew our love was finished

Even though logically

We both knew our love had to be finished

I wonder what might have happened

If I’d have actually flown from my

West coast to your east coast

Thinking of our improvable love

If I’d have actually flown from my

West coast to your east coast

If we’d have actually met

What if

For the first time

You’d have actually seen me

What if

For the first time

I had actually seen you

Would we have shaken hands

Would we have hugged

Would we have briefly hugged

With a lightly brushed kiss on the cheek

Actually

If we’d have actually met

What if

For the first time together

We sat in a public place

At a table sipping coffee or tea

Actually looking at you

Actually looking at me

Actually together for the first time

Would your hand be held in mine

Would you have wanted your hand in mine

Would I have wanted your hand in mine

Actually

What if we’d have actually met

Would the sight of me to you

Would the sight of you to me

Would your mannerisms

Would my mannerisms

Would your smile

Would my smile

would the tone of

And the sound of your voice

Would the tone of

And the sound of my voice

Would the silent message read within your eyes

Would the silent message read within my eyes

Would this meeting foster our love

Would this meeting bring realism to fantasy

What if we’d have actually met

Would we have both seen what we had

That our love was not more than fantasy

Then...

Would we have happily parted with a briefly hugged

Lightly brushed kiss on the cheek

Or…

Actually

What if we’d have actually met

Would our brief meeting…

Would the utter futility of our brief meeting…

Would the preponderance our truly found love

And our inevitable parting factually tear at our hearts

Factually tearing at our hearts bring us to tears

What if we’d have actually met?

Even now

so many years after

Thinking of our improbable love

Even though logically

We both knew our love was finished

Even though logically

We both knew our love had to be finished.

What if we’d have actually met

Actually!

Really!

What if?

©June 18, 2012 Mark M Lichterman