If you think that I am doing better, think again.  If anything, things continue to be about the same or seem to be getting worse ...

I swear the damned doctors don't know anything or how to help me get any relief.  I am still feeling as if I am having bugs crawling inside my skin and I continue to scratch my skin.  I have horrible scratch marks all up and down my arms and I am sure I will be left with scarring once they heal.  Seems they never do because once they start to scab over, the itching only intensifies and I am scratching at my arms again, reopening the wounds.  It's a catch twenty-two situatlon, a vicious cycle, if you prefer to call it that.

I have been from one doctor to the next, trying to get answers.  They think it may be allergy related, but all the tests I have had have proved to be inconclusive.  They can't seem to pin a direct cause of my problem.  I swear some of them are beginning I am only doing this because I have OCD (obsessive compulsive disorder) or they probably think that all this itching is all in my head.  I bet some of them would want me to see a shrink 'cause they think I'm going crazy.

Well, I probably AM going crazy.  Crazy 'cause I'm not getting the answers I need to solve my problem or seem to be getting any relief from the itching!  What am I going to do??  It's gotten so bad at times I can't think of anything else and I'm seriously starting to think of killing myself becaue the itching is. Driving.  Me.  CRAZY!!!!!

~To be continued!~