Our good friend, Jenna Aurora Whitson, is having a hard time emotionally as she tries to deal with the damage done to her hand and leg and the fact that she may never work again. As you can tell by the following, she is having a very bad day.
I am in tears, too, as I wrote this story; this story actually made me cry as I was writing it and then read it! Guess I am having a bad day, too!
Oh, this is such a bother; I HATE being this way! It seems all I have done lately is CRY, and now that our guests, the Sanduskys, have left, I have been a basket case!
This is Jenna Aurora Whitson again. I am sitting here in the family room, trying to peck away at this pitiful excuse for a letter or story (orwhateverinthehellitiscalled!)! It seems that all I have done is either cry or spend my days going to physical or occupational therapy; and I don't know why I MUST continue with this drivel: I am NOT going to get any better; WHY must the terrorists continue to TORTURE me this way?? I am NOT getting ANY better, and it is time I face facts and realize that I will NEVER be as I was prior to the accident!!
It takes so damned long to type this using one hand; and if I make any mistakes, it's NOT my fault! It's my stupid hand's fault! No, it isn't even that...it's my stupid ACCIDENT'S fault! If I hadn't been so flippin' stubborn and try to push my way to Louisiana to see Michael (and also do a little gamblng on the side), I wouldn't have been involved in that stupid wreck with that goddamn HUMMER, and I wouldn't be IN the fix I am in!! Now I am crippled for life, and now nobody will want to hire me because OF my hand and leg, and also the fact that I am older than 35 years old! It seems that all people want nowadays is YOUNGER people, and frankly, I am tired of all this bullshit!
I am also frustrated because Michael is working double hard, to try to provide for our means (we have a wedding coming up!), and I can't do a goddamn thing to try to help him OR myself! I am about worth as much as a soaked rag, and I can't do much for myself! Or for Michael!!
I have been crying my eyes out since the Sanduskys have left; at least when THEY were here I MOSTLY forgot about me and my physical nightmare that will always be with me for the rest of my life, and at least I got to spend time with friends! But now they are gone, back on that stupid boat, and I have no idea whether I will EVER see Louie, Bill, Johnny, OR Ronee' again! I am worried that I was too much of a pain in the ass, and I wouldn't be surprised if they wouldn't have anything to do with me ever again! I am too much of a burden, and I am sorry, but there has GOT to be a better way than having to live like THIS! This is NO way to live; and I am going CRAZY!!
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