Dear Louisa,

It is with a very heavy heart I write this letter to you. I wanted you to know I have made arrangements for Susie to fly out to be with her sisters. I have decided to give them up for adoption. I know they will be better off under someone else’s care. I don’t deserve to have them. I am working with Deb to find a good home for them. I am hoping you won’t mind them being in your care until a family is found. If it is, let me know and I will make other arrangements. Since I was only moving to California for the safety of my children I have decided to stay here. I’m not planning to be on the earth much longer anyway. I cannont live without Lacey, Maria and Susie in my life. They are my reason to get up each morning.

Please don’t try to change my mind. This is best for everyone involved. I can’t live without my girls and they deserve so much better than I can ever hope to give them.

I am going to close for now. I probably won’t write again, I don’t have any reason to. I wish you all the best and can never express what having you in my life has meant to me.

Audrey Jackson