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Dear Rebekkah: I Feel So Bad I Don't Know What To Do! (Ronee' Writes...) by Karen Lynn Vidra, The Texas Tornado
Sunday, March 18, 2007
Rated "PG" by the Author.
Ronee' writes to her friend, Rebekkah, who is now a quadriplegic after being shot while walking home from church. She is trying to come to grips over what has happened to her friend.
Sunday, March 18, 2007, 9:04 p.m., D.S.T., Nashville, Tennessee~
Dear Rebekkah~
By now, you should be settled at the Rehabilitation Center. I am glad you are doing (somewhat) better, but I feel helpless about what has happened to you. It doesn't seem fair that you have to endure more pain, more heartache, just because some people decided to act stupid. What is going on in the world today? Why did you have to be the one to get shot? WHY??
I am very angry about the fact that you are a quadriplegic. You have already lived with pain insensitivity disorder and the amputation of your legs. You have already lived with the kidnapping of your sister Daniella (thank God she was returned to you!), and you have had to endure teasing by other people because of your being Jewish (and a Christian). You have not had an easy life, but you have remained strong. I admire you for that, I don't think I could put up with half of the shit you have had to go through!
I have cried more the past few days than I have in a while. I am trying to be strong for you (and for Johnny), but it is so damned hard! (Yes, I cussed, but oh, well. At this point, I don't care. I am angry. I'm very angry at God for allowing this to happen to you.) In fact, I didn't go to church tonight. I just stayed home and cried. I didn't want to face the pastor, my friends, or anyone else. I am hurting too bad emotionally.
I am an emotional wreck. I just don't understand.
Well, Rebekkah, I hope you'll write back one day. In the meantime, you will have to have others do it for you. That has got to make you feel so helpless! I know it would me! I will be looking forward to your reply; do know I love you.
(((HUGS))) and much love, your sad Tennessee friend, Ronee' Le-Anne Reaux. :( >tears!<
P.S.: Maman knows I am upset. She said I can stay home from school tomorrow if I don't feel like going.
You have not had an easy life, but you have remained strong. I admire you for that, I don't think I could put up with half of the shit you have had to go through!
I doubt that many of us could, Ronee.
Reviewed by Karen Palumbo
3/18/2007
Very tough situation! Is it fair, no. God is not to blame, but he understands the stages we all must go through before we reach the end, understand and see the light. Everyone must learn to deal with whatever hand they are dealt and go forward, always forward from there. Beautifully written! Your friend in Texas.
Be safe,
Karen
This is a beautiful write from a friends heart, thank you for sharing, write on and be blessed, and R.R will be responding soon...So stay tuned
God Bless
Michelle~
Ronee is going through the stages of grief: shock (denial); anger; sadness; bargaining. And finally, acceptance. (I think that's the order.) All are a normal part of the process; right now, she is in the disbelief/anger stages. She has a right to feel the way she does. An excellent letter of emotional turmoil from one of our favorite characters.
