Remember me?  If not, it's me, Nathan Lake--the one kids have called "The Creature", thanks to my facial deformities.

I have not been writing in here regularly:  for one thing, school's kept me pretty well grounded--homework every night, that "end-of-the-school-year" push teachers do, to make sure we've retained everything we've learned during the year.  It's been a drag; I haven't been able to enjoy myself much. 

In addition, I've also been attending church with my family.  That's right:  church.  I've been going to church at Christ Community Assembly of God here in Nashville, and last week, I gave my heart to the Lord.  I couldn't take any more of my life or what's been going on in it, so I gave it all to the Lord.  It's made a world of difference in my life, not only for me, but for those around me.

In just one short week, I've found my attitude changed.  I used to want to physically hurt the kids who had been tormenting me all these years about my face:  now I find myself praying for them, asking God to change their hearts, and to let them accept me for me, let them look past my deformed face.

I also cry more than I used to.  I find crying or talking to God cathartic:  it's been like a healing balm; I feel better physically (and emotionally), more than I have in God knows how long.  It's embarrassing:  any little thing (a beautiful song on the radio, people lifting their voices in prayer at church, the pastor's sermon, a beautiful sunset or a bird singing) can set my eyes to watering like a leaky faucet.

Ma and Pa have really seen a difference in me; I no longer hide in my room, just to get away from people.  I find myself wanting familial attention, attention from others, and I find myself wanting to go out, do things; I find staying at home claustrophobic, when before it was all I seemed to care about.

I listen to my folks; I no longer backsass them, and I also find myself caring for people who are less fortunate than me. 

I guess it's the Lord working in my life; there's no better way I can explain it, excepting my life's been completely changed. 

It's been nothing short of a miracle.  The last entry I wrote I was thinking of suicide or ending my life; now I find myself embracing life, and looking forward to whatever the Lord has in store for me.  Now how cool is that??

I will write in here again soon; take care and God bless!  This is Nathan (aka "The Creature") signing off!

~Nathan Lake. :)