Sunday, August 31, 2008, 10:26 p.m., D.S.T.~

Dear Journal~

Sarah here.  I'm afraid I'm not doing very well at the moment.

Wayne's heart isn't responding to the meds as doctors hoped it would; in fact, he may be dying, according to Dr. Jagadish.  He's in critical condition; his sister, Audrey is trying to get here as soon as she can.

Louie was the one who called her to inform her about her brother.  I pray she gets to Nashville safely, in one piece, before Gustav comes ashore (due in sometime tomorrow morning to early afternoon). 

The kids know their daddy is very sick; they remain quiet, scared, unsure as to what is going to happen.  All we can do right now is wait, pray, hope that his health turns around, survives this latest setback.

Louie has been a Godsend, keeping us abreast of my husband's health, taking care of him when at the hospital.  I don't know what I can possibly do to repay her; she's already done so much for our family it's unreal! 

I know that I can't control things if Wayne does die; however, I do have a sense of peace about me.  I know that he's saved, and when he does die (that is, if he does), he'll go straight to Heaven, to be with his Lord and Saviour, Jesus, and he will be healed of his spina bifida, and will then be able to walk, even run, freely, without cumbersome leg braces, paralysis, crutches, for the first time in his life.

It will be extremely difficult to get through this if it does come to pass; however, I know I have friends, family, the saving grace of my Jesus to get me through the darkest periods.

I remain sitting by the phone, in case it rings; when it does, I about jump a mile, wondering if it's the hospital calling, to tell me that Wayne's died.  So far, it's only been Audrey, Kendra, or Louie.  Also Naomi.  They've all been so supportive, loving during this crisis that's befallen our family.

Well, I am going to go.  I am going to try to get the kids settled down for the night, then continue my phone vigil and pray like thunder for my husband, pray God brings him out of this latest setback.  Just continue to lift me up in prayer; believe me, I can use all the prayers I can possibly get, and so can my sister-in-law Audrey!

~Love, your friend, Sarah. :( >tears!<