Eddie Garcia here. 

This won't be long, not like my past entries; y'see, I am continuing to have trouble with my darn MS acting up.  Between my spasms in my face, arms, and legs, the discoloration of my legs from time to time, the weakness or tiredness, the pains in my back, and whatnot, I'm afraid to see what the MS will dish out next.

Now, on top of all that, my vision has blurred.  It's almost like looking through a thick curtain of fog, making it difficult to see.  My mama is here, helping out; she's acting as my eyes as I try to navigate around my place.  I have been sitting in my wheelchair; mama won't let me walk, in case I run into something again.  Lately, I have been nothing but a big klutz!

I have the bumps and bruises to back that claim.  It looks like someone beat the holy crapola out of me!

I am still trying to get my stupid SSDI.  Got a letter from them last week.  Denied.  Not disabled enough.  This makes the fourth time; now I am going to have to get that lawyer!  I am so frustrated with the government I could just scream!!  Why do I need a stupid attourney to prove that I am disabled while those who intentionally use (or abuse) the system seemingly get it without little difficulty?  It doesn't make any sense whatsoever!!

Ever since I got diagnosed with my MS, I haven't been able to work.  My mom or other family members have had to come over to help me, especially on my bad days where I am flaring!  Seems that lately my life has been nothing but one huge, continuous MS flare!!

God, I hate having this damn MS!!!!

Tomorrow is Easter; who knows what I will be dealing with next??  I pray I will get to be able to get out and go to church:  church is having some special Easter music, and it's always so crowded; we have to get there early in order to find a good seat.  I usually end up coming in halfway during the worship service, and then I end up leaving early because I pissed myself again or some other stupid MS symptom is acting up!  It's nothing short of embarrassing!!

I pray I can get through the Easter service tomorrow without Miss MS rearing her ugly head!  This is when I wish I didn't have to live with it; I wouldn't wish MS on my worst enemy!  (Okay, okay, maybe on the terrorists of the world, but that's another story altogether!  LOLOL)

Well, it's hard for me to see to write this, so I am going to go now.  My vision is more akin to dancing, writhing, wiggling worms:  that's what the scene looks like before me, and it's making me terribly dizzy (not to mention, extremely queasy).  I will write in here again when my eyes decide to behave themselves. Until then, this is Eddie signing off; take care, and try to have a happy Easter Sunday!

~Love, your friend, Edwina (Eddie) Garcia.  :(