I had not intended for my words to appear as if I was self centered, I am not, I probably was more concerned that I had to get to bed as I had a long drive in the morning.

I say this because I saw the look on your face as you heard what I had said, it was as if I had knocked the wind out of your sails. Stupidly I did not respond to what I saw, you said 'Alright.' Then turned and left.

It made little difference because I have been trying to contact you ever since, been up most of the night, so if you get this message, I am on the road, call me, I will pull over and catch you.

That was how it all started, now I am lost, cannot contact her, she will not answer her phone. Her friends have no idea where she is. To make it even more a concern herr auto is not in the parking area you use, I have checked it out and knocked her door every single day. 

Now I am at my wits end, if I had not been so selfish, she would still be around, I know that for a fact. One of her friends told me she was going through a bad patch, wish she had said.

Its now a year past since I last spoke to her, I have been told she no longer lives at that address, her phone is no longer avaliable. As far as it seems, she has left town. I loved that girl so much, dam stupid job making so many demands on me, I lost it in the end, spent too much time getting to places.

It was such a shock when I was looking at MTV last night, you were there singing that number you wrote, I wish I could wish you well. I tried to contact you through MTV, they just gave me your agency number, nothing. They said you were abroad.

I still hope one day we will meet again, time has been no healer to me, two years past since I last saw you for real. Seen your music vids, but I want to see you.

It all came crashing in on me today, you were in the newspaper. Why did you marry that guy, we could have been great for each other. God I wish you well, but wish it was me with you.