I wish people could get off their stupid kick of weight or looks ... I would be a lot better off!

I can't help it if I'm overweight! While I am in no way morbidly obese, I am still bigger than a lot of my classmates and it is embarrassing, especially when I have to change my clothes before/after Phys Ed or hear them making digs about me!

I have always been bigger than normal.  It's in my genetic makeup.  My mom and dad were both fat (still are, though both have lost some weight and follow an exercise and eating plan to keep their weight/body in check) and I eat healthy myself.  I drink water (lots and LOTS of water!!), eat lots of fruits and veggies, and stay away from greasy foods or foods that are high in fat/carbs.  I have lost over 40 pounds, but I still have a ways to go yet.

Yet the kids in my class don't see how hard I have been working to get myself in shape or at least skinnier.  I am still bigger than a good chunk of 'em and all they do is make fun of me.  Sometimes I get so discouraged all I want to do is hide in my room or starve myself.  

What would that solve?? It would only create worse problems for me and I don't think Mom or Dad could handle that, especially with Mom's health the way it is!  

Mom has had diabetes and other problems because of her weight for years.  She has to use oxygen a lot of the time because she gets so winded, but at least she isn't bedridden anymore; still it is hard for her to get around easily).  

Daddy, meanwhile, is healthier and is following a no salt, no fat diet after he had his heart attack last year.  It frustrates him that his wife is still ill, but Mom can't help it: her diabetes is the kind that's extremely hard to control.  One minute she's fine; the next, she's in the hospital again with another diabetic or breathing crisis.

I wish something could be done to help Mom!  I'm scared that she is going to go blind or at least lose her legs or go into irreversable renal failure and/or end up on dialysis!

Seeing Mom go through with what she does makes me that more determined to prove these stupid kids at school wrong.  I may be overweight, but I am a person first, a person with feelings!  I hate being told  that I am a nobody or that I can't do anything because I am fat!  God made me the way I am for a reason, and if the stupid popular or jock kids can't handle that, then I don't even need to be around them!

Kind of hard to ignore their catcalls or avoid them altogether when I see them at school every day!  (Makes me wish I were still on Christmas break!  Only been in school for a few days and already the stupid Pops and Jocks are making my life a living hell!!)

Just keep me in your prayers; i could really use 'em!  Yet my Mom needs prayers more: she is running high in her blood sugar and is feeling horrid; if she doesn't feel better by tomorrow morning, she may have to go back into the hospital, and she just got out two days before Christmas!  I would greatly appreciate it and so would my parents!!  Thanks in advance!!

~Shellie Gale.