By all means, I should have died. 

God had other plans.  Even when I fell from that tower, God had His hands on me.  He protected me from even further severe injury.  As bad as the accident was, things could have very easily been a lot worse than what they were.

I am paralyzed, unable to feel anything from the waist on down, but the fact is this: I am still alive, even after falling 50' from a tower I had been working on.  I was helping some friends when the accident happened.

I have been in the hospital for over a month; getting ready to go to rehab now, where they will work with me to get me moving again.  I may never walk again; but then again, I may, though it would be on crutches or a walker.  It's just too soon to tell.

I have my bad days where I remember my life B.T.A. (Before The Accident): I was active on our church's men's softball league, a loving husband to my wife, a supportive and wonderful father to our two sons, ages 5 and 11, ran 5 miles a day.  It still makes me sad, but I have since learned that just because I may never walk again, it doesn't mean my life is over.

I can still have a good life, even if I never do walk again and/or have to spend the rest of my days in a wheelchair.  There are still plenty of things that I can do, even if I may have to do it sitting down or standing supported between two crutches strapped to my forearms.

The road back is going to be long, painful (for muscles I never even knew I had), and hard, but I am determined.  I don't want to spend the rest of my days feeling sorry for what I have lost.  I have a family and a church to get back to.  I have my regular job as a librarian to return to.  I have my friends to support and rally around me once I do return home.

In addition to that, I also have the sustaining grace and love of my God, who has been with me all this time.  It is because of Him that I still live, even after being severely injured and paralyzed as a result. 

I don't know what the future holds for me, exepct that I will never walk under my own power, but I am determined to get what I lost back.  I WILL walk again.  You just watch.  I. WILL.  Walk.  AGAIN!!

~To be continued.~