The written word is my greatest enemy.

I have difficulty in reading or writing.  It is easier if I speak into a tape recorder or take notes by recording the teacher's voice, then listening to her lectures later on as I do my homework.  When I DO have to write, I have to struggle with trying to read and putting the letters or numbers down correctly, but even when I do my best, I end up nearly flunking out.

For me a C or a D is good.  I hate having to be yelled at by my Dad, who doesn't really understand my struggles: he just thinks that I am not "applying myself" when in all truth, I AM.  Mom is more understanding, thank goodness, but she tends to side with Dad; after all he IS her husband.  So I guess I'm stuck.

Mom and Dad tend to fight about me and then I wish I could stay at Grandma's for a while.  She never belittles me or calls me hopeless or stupid.  Dad always does and then he wonders why I hate school.  Instead of being supportive, Dad makes me feel worse than ever.

The only reason why I am doing this here on the computer is because my computer has Spell-Check, which helps me out greatly; it corrects my mistakes automatically and then my paper doesn't look as if a retard wrote it. (I know I am not retarded, but I feel like one, especially when the other kids tease me or my dad tells me that I am stupid.)

Yes, I am cheating, but I'm sorry.  I cannot help it.  I have to do something to help myself!

I tend to miss a lot of school bcause I get a lot of stomachaches (mostly from nerves or worrying about whether Dad will call me names or if the other kids will tease me yet again).  I don't like to miss school, but how can I enjoy it when learning itself is so hard for me??

Just pray for me; I wish God could make my dyslexia go away so school would be a lot easier for me!!  I hate struggling so hard the way I do!!