"It's never your fault."

"You're never to blame."

"You're about as worthless as they come."

"Get out of our sight."

"We're disgusted by you."

"I wish we never even had you."

These are the types of things I hear every day by my parents.  And because of their continuing tirade against me, it's no wonder I'm always depressed or wish that I could go live with Grandma.  At least Grandma cares ....

If my parents don't like me, then why did they even have me??  Why do they have to treat me like a human garbage bag day in and day out??

If they're not yelling at me, they're always making me do things while they sit on their fat lazy asses and collect disability.  Both claim they can't work: back problems and all, or they are depressed.  Yeah, they're depressed 'cause they spend all their money on beer or food.  

My parents are the ones who disgust me.  Yet if I try to tell others (teachers, Grandma, my guidance councellor at school, etc.), then Mom and Dad threaten me with groundings, beatings, or worse, if I rat them out.  I'm sorry, but this is not a way for a kid like me to live!

It's a good thing that Mom or Dad don't have other kids.  Bad as they treat me, maybe it's a good thing that they don't.  I've been wanting to call CPS on them, but the trouble is, they monitor my every move and have to know everything I do, just so they can find fault with me and yell at me (as if they don't already do that enough now as it is!).

It's pathetic.  I don't konw what's gonna happen, but if things don't change soon, I'm gonna have to take action and fast before something bad happens!!

~To be continued!~