Tells the story of a woman who is a lesbian and how she feels about it. This story is told in her own words, and it is fictional; but her feelings are real. She is the lover of Jennifer Kaylin Steele, who I have written about earlier in a story entitled "Jennifer's Story: A Woman of Sheer Determination".
I for one am NOT a lesbian, and i am not one who believes in that lifestyle; but if a person wishes to do this, then I am NOT going to judge them. I happen to have friends who ARE lesbian, and they are my FRIENDS first. What they do is nobody's business but their own, and I am NOT going to judge them, even though I do NOT agree with their lifestyle! :)
My name is Terri Moniq'ue LeRoi, and I am 40 years old. I am also a self-proclained lesbian.
I am in love with another woman whose name is Jennifer. Jennifer Kaylin Steele is her name, and she and I have been lovers going on about a year now; and right now, we can't be happier.
I met Jennifer at the bar I work at (I am a cocktail waitress, and I make darn good tips), and we managed to hit it off, even though she happens to be in a wheelchair and is paralyzed. She still treats me like a decent human being. Something most people do NOT do because of my so-called "chosen lifestyle".
I am often ostracized, and people don't understand my life because of fear, misunderstanding, or warped misconceptions about what it means to BE "gay". I am often faced with hate and fear, and people oftentimes don't want to have nothing to do with me or with Jennifer, and it hurts very much deep down inside, more than you will possibly ever know.
Jennifer was paralyzed in a construction accident, and she is a "low quadriplegic" (she can move her arms and her shoulders; but she can't use her hands) and is in a motorized wheelchair, but even with her obvious physical disability, she still works as a living, and she is still working for the company she worked at before she was injured and wound up paralyzed. She isn't crazy about the "office work", but she is still glad to be working, and she is still glad she is working with the same people.
Jennifer Kaylin Steele is 38, only 2 years younger than myself (I am 40), and she is quite attractive with her dark-red hair done in a punk style, muscular build, tanned skin, and knowing eyes that don't hide much. She wears mainly men's style clothing because it is easier. She has been on her own since she was 13 (her parents had died in a car wreck), and has done very well for herself. She has a tough exterior about her, and she doesn't take any crap from ANYBODY.
I am tall, skinny, black, and more shy than Jennifer is. I tend to hide my true feelings, and I don't trust most people because I am afraid what they may say when they find out that I am gay and am a lesbian by nature. It isn't easy to live like this, but this is how I have always felt (I have never really been comfortable around men, especially since my older cousin raped me when I was 14).
It also doesn't help that my parents won't even have anything to do with me. See, my parents are both old-fashioned, straight-laced Pentecostals, and they are always telling me that "I am doomed to hellfire because I am gay," and all they manage to do is preach at me and quote Scripture at me. Right now, I am so sick of "religion" I can just SPIT, and right now, I don't want to have ANYTHING to do with it. I think it is silly, and I only think that they are using religion as a crutch or a way to get back at me because I "am not like them". They have refused to call me or visit me, even though we live only a few streets apart from one another, and they are always telling other people at their church that "they don't even have a daughter", which breaks my heart. As far as they are concerned, I am DEAD.
If you want to know the truth, I am very saddened about my parents' refusal to accept me, even though I am their only flesh and blood.
This is why, if people ask me what "religion" I am, I tell them that I am an athiest. I don't believe in God, and don't care to. My lover isn't very religious either, but she DOES believe in God. I don't see why, but she does. No, she is NOT as crazed as my parents are, but she knows that there IS a God (she just doesn't practice religion), and she knows that He made the things of this Earth (the skies, trees, animals, etc.); she just doesn't go to church (excepting at Christmas or Easter, and the only reason she goes then is because she loves to hear the music). I usually don't set foot inside a church, but if Jennifer wants to go, she will, especially if she is invited to a service. That is okay, but it's just not my thing, ya' know??
Besides the issue of our lifestyle (many people think the gay or lesbian lifestyle is a happy one, but nothing could be farther from the truth; it is a very hard and often misunderstood lifestyle, and many gays or lesbians are unhappy and/or depressed), there is also the issue of Jennifer's being disabled, and why I would be seen with a person who is in a wheelchair. There is also the issue of race. Jennifer is Caucasian, and I am African-American; but I feel that as long as we love and accept one another, then why should race matter? As long as we love each other, that should be what is important, not just the color of our skin or the fact that Jennifer is disabled, while I am not!
I am very happy right now, especially since Jennifer came into my life; and she is the friend I have been looking for. She is funny, gruff, a great conversationalist, caring, and understanding. She is also an inspiration, not only to me, but to others. She is disabled and is in a wheelchair, but she is still making a living for herself, and she won't take any crap from people. She tells it just how it is, and she pulls no punches.
I wish I were more outgoing as she is, but she is still a good friend, and she is a terrific person all around! When we are not working, we go out together, and we just cruise the town, going to movies or out to eat, or maybe even shopping. We love being together, and I am glad I met her!
You've covered many points of difficulty and controversy here. Terri and Jennifer have a very difficult relationship, but their love makes it easier for them than it could be individually.
this is a fascinating peek into the lives of two people that care for each other, who are lovers, and must face adversity not only because of jennifer's disability, but also because of race and lifestyle. you've demonstrated that love overcomes all obstacles so well in this write. *applause* and well done!
i enjoyed reading terri leroi's story...i can't wait to read more about her and jennifer!
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