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I'm a forever tweaker. Sometimes my creativity comes
in great bursts, but usually I'm making little additions
and changes that result in a new landscape I didn't
imagine but which feels familiar and wonderful when Iarrive.
This is the procss I guide readers through in Healing Your
Hungry Heart. When we set a large goal for ourselves, like
eating disorder recovery or living a better and more fulfilling
life or being successful in a new career the path between here
and there can seem formidble or invisible. Regular and consisten
tweaking our imagination, our routines, our methods of
nourishing body mind, heart and soul is a practical, efficient
and creates a journey sprinkled with much joy.
I suppose the greatest influence in my life was a psychological
deficit that created my bulimia. All my life I have sought to heal
and move through limiting circumstances. Now in recovery I don't
seem willing or able to stop this this growing through limitations
system. I like it, and it creates many benefits in my life.
First and continued influence would be books and reading.
Starting at three years old, when I got my first library card in
Ansonia, CT, I've loved reading, books and later learned to
appreciate, admire and befriend authors.
Natural life, i.e. plants, animals, weather, seasons have
been another major and continuous influence and guide
and teacher in my life As a child I played in the wooded
areas around my home. It was a safer world and I would
be gone all day, from breakfast to dark.
When I was 6 - 9 little I met meet my friends in the woods
to play pirates all day or to try to capture small wild creatures.
We did trap a toad once. I held it captive with leaves while
my friend ran home to ask his mother if it would give us
warts. He returned saying it would gives us warts so we
let the frog go. :)
When I was10 one summer in Norwich, CT I had
breakfast, packed a lunch and rode my bicycle to ride
all day, exploring woods and farms, coming home only
when it neared darkness.
Living an adult life wracked with bulimia was a creative
challenge. Going through recovery was a greater creative
challenge.
I learned that curiosity, willingness to risk, creativity, willingness
to rebel and follow my authentic heart's desire was crucial for my
health and satisfaction in life. Whenever I didn't honor my heart's
desire I found myself in trouble. When I did, I found myself in a
better life.
Writing and books continue to be my fall back whenever
I am in doubt or feel I am on the verge of yet another life
transition. Now I believe my life transition is leading me to
a full commitment to the writer's life. I'm not sure what form
that twill take for me. But I have my garden, my books, my
writing itself, and the courage to continue to be with my
supportive community to find my way.
I wrote Healing Your Hungry Heart: recovering from your
eating disorder.. Conari Press published it in 2011. IIt's a
good feeling to have that out in the worl It's an even better
feeling when I get letters telling me how muchit is helping
people understand and recovery from an eating disorder.
I know .there's another book in me demanding to be written...
maybe many... but, true to form, I approach my tasks gradually
knowing that I will tweak daily and see unexpected landscapes
in my future.
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