At some point most of us wonder about God. Morgan Freeman had a series and traveled the world looking for God The Story of God.
I looked in the mirror and said God help me stop drinking. HE did in one night before I believed. I also used to hit, throw, slam something and swear in anger daily.
The next year Karen was diagnosed with Alzheimer's and I blamed God.
I have had more signs from God than many pastors including one who told me God doesn't talk to people. I felt incredible peace come to me at night next to Karen and said many times who are you.