After watching a TV program about a woman who was abused by her father, where the last scene was of her beating the heck out of her father's grave and then she said, 'You are only a victim until you decide you are not a victim!' This had a profound impact on me, which is still with me today, it appears somewhere about page 330 or so in my book

 July 1 1990...9:34 am
On the Train to Sheffield

Scarred for life since childhood
    Emotions on the run
The guilt the shame the 'Was it me?'
    Block out all sense of fun
Abused by one who should have known
    No choice was offered to
An innocent a child of life
    You cannot see can you?
To those who force their will unasked
    Their body and their mind
Upon the child so innocent
    How can you be so blind?
Can you not see what you have done
    While thinking of yourself?
Without regard for human life
    For you I’ll toll the bell
To those whose innocence was torn
    And ripped apart in shreds
I feel your tears trapped deep inside
    Your feelings burnt and bled
Pay you no heed to others words
    Who put the blame on you
Trust in yourself your inner voice
    Believe and trust in you
I wish you peace and rainbows bright
    Head up wherever you walk
Say out loud accept believe
    'My child it’s not your fault'
Your child was an innocent
    Your child’s in your brain
Alone and scared and crying for
    Someone to ease the pain
It’s not their fault that child of yours
    Don’t take it on yourself
To compensate for others faults
    Put feelings on the shelf
Don’t think of those who put on you
    Not thinking of your health
Not them you now must think about
    You must forgive yourself