Lonely Awaits
by Odin odin@aflx.com — Read all 3,869 poems by Odin odin@aflx.com
Certain answers are never uttered.
Sunday, March 24, 2013
Lonely Awaits
This gathering furl of past
Rising from love’s once moist heart
Now but dry sorrow
Lingering stubbornly
Where once its canvas
Of vibrant color
Rainbowed the future
Today only flaking memories small
Drift downward
Joining queues of bygone erosion
Where emotions of stalwart bedrock
Once held firm
Like aging scree
Time continues biting thin
Moving yesterday’s drifts into exile
Chased by fossiled feelings
Once of molten passion
Now but withering dunes
Aimlessly adrift
This expanse of solitary
Whom death made giant of wind
And small as hourglass sand
Whose Sabbath wore Mary Jane shoes
Waxed each Saturday
Polished to reflective mirrors
Paying homage
To steepled Sunday service
Was made to sit upright
Conscious of ruler at the ready
Reciting the ancient book
Whose guilt-motive stories
Promised good girl suppers
To close out Lonely’s black Sunday
Agonized memories past
Seem ever present
Pain’s last remaining stand
Pleads why ghost towns await
Why deserts only preserve such places
From drifting grit of expired time
Like the sand
Lonely awaits another tomorrow
Fractured
Scattered
Clinging to its impoverished identity
Here I am
Lonely mutters each night
Its head buried in nocturnal safety
Unable to forget its childhood fear
Perhaps never to be vanquished
To always be at the mercy
Of wind and tide
Its dreamt upon cheerful voice
Never being heard
Here I am
Here I am
On the other hand, my mother has begun to express her loneliness, living alone in an apartment, now profoundly deaf from nerve hearing loss, unable to communicate like she always did with other people in social gatherings because of the deafness and aphasia. The aphasia even affecting her ability to answer and write the countless e-mails she used to send daily from her computer and phone calls now so difficult to make.
The sands of time errode and take away our passion. But I hope that I can cling onto mine until it is no longer necessary for me to live and I will go peacefully, not worry about being alone. We all die alone.
Ron
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