MY TESTIMONY

MY NAME IS SUSAN MOLL, SUSIE SUNSHINE TO ALL MY FRIENDS, I HAVE BEEN A CHRISTIAN FOR MOST OF MY LIFE,BUT NEVER REALLY GAVE GOD CONTROL TO DO WHAT EVER HE WANTED WITH ME. THAT IS UNTIL 1996.

I HAD A VERY DEEP PRAYER LIFE AND HAD PRAYER WITH MY CHILDREN EVERY NIGHT, EVEN WHEN MY OLDEST SON WAS IN HIS LATE TEENS, HE WANTED ME TO COME IN AND HAVE THAT TIME WITH HIM.

MY FAITH WASN'T ALWAYS STRONG, I WENT THROUGH TIMES THAT IT WAS VERY WEAK, AND THE COMFORT I HAD KNOWN WASN'T THERE AS IT HAD BEEN BEFORE. BUT LITTLE DID I KNOW THAT WAS ALL ABOUT TO CHANGE.

IT WAS DURING ONE OF MY MANY LATE NIGHT PRAYER TIMES, THAT GOD REALLY STARTED SPEAKING TO ME, AND SINCE THIS HAD NEVER HAPPENED SO STRONG, I THOUGHT MAYBE I WAS JUST SLEEPY, MAYBE I WOULD SEE CLEARLY IN THE MORNING.

BUT THIS DESIRE WAS STILL IN MY HEART, A DESIRE TO BE CLOSER TO THE GOD OF MY SALVATION, TO BE USED, TO BE HIS VESSEL, ONE THAT HE COULD REALLY USE ANYWAY HE WANTED.

THE MORE I PRAYED ABOUT THIS THE STRONGER IT WAS IN MY HEART, AND I WAS FEELING THE DESIRE IN ME SO VERY MUCH TO REACH OUT TO PEOPLE, AND TO DO IT IN A BIG WAY.

GOD WAS CALLING ME TO GO OUT AND TELL OTHERS ABOUT HIS LOVE, HIS PROMISES, HIS HEALINGS , HIS SALVATION. IT WAS PLACED IN MY HEART AND MIND I WAS TO START A MINISTRY FOR HIM.

OK GOD, I AM A BUS DRIVER WITH 3 KIDS, HOW AM I GOING TO GO TO SCHOOL TO LEARN ALL I NEED TO KNOW TO DO WHAT YOU WANT ME TO DO, SHOW ME FATHER, OPEN MY EYES TO WHAT YOU WANT.

IT WASN'T A WEEK LATER, I WAS GOING THROUGH THE PAPER AND FOUND A ARTICLE ON A COURESPONDANCE COURSE THAT WAS THROUGH THE MAIL, IT WOULD TAKE ABOUT A YEAR, BUT I WOULD BE ORDAINED AND BE A MINISTER.

BECAUSE AT ONE TIME I HAD BEEN INVOLVED WITH A MAN STUDYING TO BE A PREACHER, AND BEING A TEACHER AND COUNSELOR FOR ALMOST 8 YEARS THE COURSE WENT PRETTY FAST FOR ME.

THEY WOULD SEND ME INFORMATION TO STUDY, SEND ME TEST, I MAIL THEM BACK AND THEY GRADE THEM AND MAIL THEM TO ME WITH TEST SCORES, ON SEPT 25TH 1996 ALSO MY DAUGHTERS BIRTHDAY, I BECAME A ORDAINED MINISTER, WITH MY OWN CHURCH CHARTER.

NOW ALL I HAD TO DO WAS FIND A BUILDING TO HAVE STUDIES IN, GOD OPENED THE DOORS TO A LOG HOUSE IN THE LAKE PERRY AREA, AND FOR A YEAR I HAD STUDIES EVERY SATURDAY.

EVEN WITH THAT I FELT IT WASNT ENOUGH, THERE WAS MORE I WAS TO DO THAN THIS ONCE A WEEK STUDY GROUP, THIS WAS GOOD BUT I ALSO KNEW GOD HAD MORE FOR ME TO DO..BUT WHAT.

AGAIN IN PRAYER IT WAS TOLD TO ME, I WANT TO USE YOU TO REACH THE WORLD..OK GOD ..HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO DO THAT.THIS I KNEW WASNT GODS PLAN, THERE ISNT ANY WAY I COULD THINK OF TO HAVE THIS EVEN A POSSIBILITY.

AND I WENT MY OWN WAY FOR THE NEXT FEW YEARS, THE MOVE TO

PERRYVILLE WAS A BIG MOVE, I HAD TO GIVE UP THE MINISTRY DUE TO DIVORCE, AND THE LAWS OF THE BIBLE I NOW FELT I WAS BREAKING,HOW COULD GOD USE A DIVORCED WOMAN.

THERE WERE SO MANY THINGS BEING DONE IN MY LIFE NOW, I KNEW GOD WAS HEARTBROKEN, I FELT I HAD BETRAYED HIM IN SO MANY WAYS, FOR THE NEXT 10 YEARS I DIDNT GO TO CHURCH, FELLOWSHIP WITH OTHER BELIEVERS, JUST SORT OF PULLED AWAY INTO MYSELF.

NEVER ONCE DID I STOP BELIEVING , JUST STOPPED SERVING, IN FACT THEN I NEEDED TO HANG ON TO GOD TIGHTER THAN EVER JUST TO SURVIVE.

AND THATS WHAT I HAD TO DO FOR THE NEXT 10 YEARS, JUST TRY TO SURVIVE, ONE NIGHT IT ALMOST COST ME MY LIFE.

I LEFT THE RELATIONSHIP I WAS IN AND GOT BACK INTO SCHOOLING, GOT CERTIFIED AS A CMA, A RESTORATIVE THERAPY ASST. AND GOT AS FAR AWAY AS I COULD FROM THE MAN THAT WAS TAKING ME TO A PATH OF DEATH.

ONCE AGAIN MY OLDEST SON ZACHARY CAME TO MY RESCUE, HE HOOKED ME UP WITH MYSPACE FOR BETTER CONTACT WITH HIM, BUT THIS CHANGED EVERYTHING FOR ME, MY PROFILE PAGE WAS GOING TO BE A TESTIMONY PAGE.

IN DOING THAT, THE RESPONSE WAS SO AWESOME, SO MANY RELATED TO IT, HAD QUESTIONS ON FAITH AND THE SITUATIONS I HAD GONE THROUGH, THIS SITE WAS OPEN WORLD WIDE AND PEOPLE FROM ALL OVER THE WORLD HAD QUESTIONS AND COMMENTS.

SO THIS FIRST YEAR I TURNED IT INTO A BIBLESTUDY AND BEGAN POSTING WEEKLY STUDIES ON IT,WITHIN A YEAR, I HAD OVER 800 REGULAR READERS AND MORE EACH WEEK, THIS WAS THE WAY TO ANSWER MY CALL I HAD RECEIVED SO MANY YEARS AGO.

THIS WAS NOW 2007, AND I HAVE HAD THE BIBLESTUDY ON THERE WEEKLY EVER SINCE THAT DAY, I WAS ALSO ALLOWED RECENTLY TO HAVE THEM POSTED ON MY NEW CHURCH HOME WEBSITE.

I ALSO HAVE A WEBSITE I HAVE CREATED THIS YEAR CALLED "THE NEW BEGINNINGS MINISTRY" I HAVE WEEKLY STUDIES POSTED ON THAT ONE ALSO AND TRY TO MAKE SURE THERE ARE DIFFERENT ONES ON EACH SITE.

THESE LITTLE BOOKS ARE A COLLECTION OF STUDIES AND TEACHINGS I HAVE WRITTEN IN THE LAST 4 YEARS, WITH A FEW FROM 1996, WHEN I HAD PRAYER GROUP, MY PRAYER IS THAT THIS MAY BE ONE MORE WAY TO GET GOD'S WORDS OUT.

THE WORLD IS SO HUNGRY AND THIRSTY FOR HOPE, DIRECTION, LOVE,AND WE ALL NEED SALVATION, AND IF WE ARE SAVED WE NEED REVIVAL IN OUR SPIRIT, I KNOW FOR ME IT IS A DAILY PROCESS.

FOR EVERY TIME I POST A NEW STUDY, I ALSO LEARN LESSONS IN MY OWN LIFE WITH THEM, I STILL NEED TO LEARN, I STILL NEED TOO GROW AND THERE IS STILL MORE I NEED TO DO.

FOR ME THIS IS ONE MORE STEP TO REACH THE WORLD.

PRAYERS AND HUGS TO THE WORLD, SUSIE MOLL