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An essay by Sha'Tara, local writer and friend.
Traveling Back Through Time to Move Forward
thoughts from ~burning woman~ by Sha'Tara]
Being in "mind space" is a wonderful place - although it can be dis-orienting at times. It's like dreaming while being fully awake and performing life's duties, calls, interests, on the side. Being "in mind" means to be able to skip around in time, performing the impossible, as a stone that skips the surface of a still pond: giving it the wonderful illusion that it can float even as it knows that it is the spin and thrust (given it by a different kind of energy than it possesses) that keeps it from breaking through the surface film; even as it knows that with the end of the spin, it will sink to the bottom and may remain there for a long, long time. Until found again and spun once more, or until it translates into bedrock or becomes flowing sand...
We cannot know the future. We who penetrate its wavy suggestions are only seeing potential, not fixed reality. But what about the past? Is that a fixed reality?
Now there's a challenging thought. What's fixed about the past? That depends on how distant and how stretched the block of past we are observing. If I am looking at a particular 15 minutes from this morning, that can be quite fixed. But if I wait a year to remember -observe- that same block of time, what will I "see" then? Assuming I can even remember anything about that block of time I passed through, what will it have to tell me in one year from now? Will that 15 minutes from today be the same reality as it was when it happened? (This reminds me of a sign in a hotel seen in some movie I forget the name of: “In this place, on April 18, 1897, nothing happened.”)
For life to make any sense on a cosmic level, we must assume that somewhere there is a holographic image of that 15 minute event recorded throughout eternity exactly as it took place. But that is not what we are about. It doesn't matter what that 15 minutes was. In the flow of events, it matters only what I remember of that event. I stretch reality. Because of that event, I was changed forever. My mind added that event to all the others and created endless new possibilities from it. My direction changed, however minutely, but enough to change the outcome of everything. In part, that's the butterfly effect. But the effect not only changes the so-called (spurious and non-existent) now - it changes the past and that "changed past" changes how the future unfolds, not just for me, but for everything.
What could one say, then, of one's life through time? I am the stone. I have been found suitable to be skipped. How long I remain in motion on top of the waters depends on several factors:
First, my own suitability: how flat and smooth I am, and how willing I am to trust the process about to take place.
The skill of the skipper: how much energy he puts in creating the thrust and spin that will keep me afloat. How intensely he wants this particular stone to remain afloat so he can count the skips it makes and rejoice in his success.
The surface of the water: if it is calm or if there are wavelets on it. Or if there is an underlying current with eddies that will suck the stone under at the first touch.
I've been doing much introspection and retrospection lately - a necessary adjunct to determining and accepting one's future as one sees it approaching - studying past lives that were determined in large part by spiritual events. How I interacted with the gods, my gods, and God. Many memories arise of events within Christian lives. Many "15 minutes" when I was skipped across the waters. Flashes of awareness. Disruptive events, as eddies, that suddenly sucked me under to disappear from conscious awareness, only to reappear again and again and placing myself on those type of beaches where the "skippers" were more likely to notice me and pick me up for another throw.
And I realize that as much as I still require that a "skipper" sends me over the waters, yet I possess enough self-awareness and self-empowerment to place myself at such disposal. That's got to be something, at least.
Without "expectations"? Ah well now, that's another aspect of "flow" I've pondered. Of course there are expectations. What sort of "future" can one create; what sort of life can one live without expectations? Common sense expects to be validated, or it's no longer common sense but ignorance and stupidity (ritual and tradition). Show me someone without expectations and I'll show you a despairing nihilist or presumptuous hedonist.
There is an old story told around campfires:
Youth: "Why did God create man?"
Ancient: "In the beginning, all was perfect. God lived in harmony with all that He created. He knew all things of past, present and future. In time, God became bored with this, so He said: let us make man and fashion him in such a way he will remain utterly and completely intractable and unpredictable, no matter what we do. Thus shall we remain challenged. And so it was. Only later was God to regret this and say, "We were too hasty and too perfect in our creation."
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“Matter dreams, maintains the dream by shifting rules with constant results. Disturb the dreams, the shifting of the rules creates inconstant results. Things cannot hold.” (Greg Bear – Hardfought – from: The Wind from a Burning Woman)
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Cheers,
Dan
Ron
Again, and again, I enjoy your fertile mind of imaginative and crisp thought. Hugs!
Myrna
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Love ya!
Jane
All Everything Is Molecular Matter,i.e If
I As Human Being In My Car Can Disappear Into
Another Dimension Be Gone 7 Minutes ---Come
Back Into This Evil World Whole
In same Place I Left To Begin With!
Of Course You Cannot Believe It Happened
Simply Because It Did Not Happen To You
Will Dispute It!It Does Not Fit Into
Your Logical Mediocre Way Of (Thinking) Life!
TRASK...
Walt
Love and Light
Lily