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From the Heart 5/22/2011 2:50:18 PM
"Write about what you feel and write it from your heart. It's a start. If you're confused, write about being confused. If you're pissed, then write about that." This was an exercise Robert suggested that I do, when I told him about my frustrations in writing the Knowing Whispers Blog, especially the blogs about my 'visitor' from the universe. I don't know anyone else who has a spiritual guide, Dinahh, that visits them
I've searched deep inside the self. I've opened my heart. The mind asks, "What do I feel? I mean, what is it really that's making me feel so frustrated? Is it that this all makes me feel crazy? Is it a sense of embarrassment at how this might be taken and how it might reflect on me as a person? Is it downright anger at being asked to change how I've looked at everything I've always thought to be true and just trustingly go down some unknown path to who knows where?"
This Dinahh being who came uninvited (to say the least) from the universe has repeatedly told me I have much to learn. He has begun to try and teach me. He has also said I am to share what I learn with others by writing about it. So far, I've done what he's asked. Here I am, sticking my neck out and taking a lot of risks ... risks that people will think (like I do at times), that I'm somewhere in La-La Land, missing a marble or two from my little drawstring bag, stuck in an X Files rerun, or in one of Steven King's freakin' nightmares, none of which makes me feel very good.
Another part of me asks the obvious question, "If I'm not crazy, and if this is real, then why me?" What could a writer like me possibly achieve for the universe by writing what the universe deems to be important? Aren't there a million more qualified, better educated writers who should be chosen to do what the universe has asked me to do?
When I ask, why me, Robert simply says, "Why not you?" He seems to think it's because I am, even at my age, still so in touch with my inner child's innocence and wonder and I have retained an ability to remember "home" through my awareness. "Think about it," he says, "the universe is pure and innocent, and everything, and all of us are connected. There is no beginning and no end, it's a complete circle of love."
