I am so afraid of just letting go & loving

That somehow I just might need you

Falling way too fast & too deep

& then what will I do

The nights will get too long alone

In the wide expanse of my bed

Thoughts of you will dance madly

& you will get too far into my head

To truly deeply love again only to lose it

Would be but another broken dream

Impossibly, I still believe in happy endings

My stories reach out for a different theme

In the end, if it is eventually LOVE, the real thing

It deserves to live ever through each tomorrow

& how I question everything I say and do

As if I could with perfect word and deed avoid all sorrow

I have told you that the feeling does not depend on outcome

And softly, thoughtfully, you said, “…but it should “

You were so right that real love deserves to last

I’d hold on to this perfectly if only I could

Somehow know how to love perfectly past

Fighting these great fears that exist only

Because this may not be just another practice round

You terrify me because you just may be the one

The pressure of that weighs too heavily in fear

To have the great joy rediscovering love & then to have none

Would be living again in too many black days of regret