So many tears

Tangible, plausible years

Tears of joy

Tears of sorrow

Tears of anger

Look for the morrow

The knife wrenching and twisting

Ripping, gutting, remains spilt

Married to the one true and fast

Loneliness a wicked spouse

Harsh and cold, aloof at best

Enveloping at worst

Happiness mocks all that is done

Known only to derive it’s worth

From the angst of the chosen

Pegged at birth, primed in youth

Destined to be great at solitude

Is there no sunrise for me to attach my dreams to?

Is there no rainbow to hold my heart’s delight?

Is there no wave to carry my hopes to you?

Has fate dealt a crooked hand?

Stop the world, I want to get off.

I’m so frightened of being alone.

Who will love me?

Who will become breathless at the sight of me?

Who shall touch me in passion heretofore unknown?

Our star, so cleverly hidden behind clouds of doubt and fear.

Will I ever know this love inside my heart?

A love so pure, so precious, I dare only dream it.

How I have imagined the possibilities day after day.

My mind wanders to thoughts of pleasure and joy

To ease the pain I feel suffocated by.

You live your life, you follow your heart,

You honor your commitment.

And I? I regret our lips never touched -

For one kiss would end years of sadness.

The very lifeblood would flow so freely,

None could stop it, would be futile to try.

One kiss, one night, two passions, one united soul.