I just wanted to let you know that I read Undiscovered
event. It is simply beautiful. I think that it is amazing how you can
just write
about anything and everything. It takes alot of talent to be able to
do
that. I was gonna call you this evening but we had two meetings at
work
and
before I knew it, it got late and I did'nt want to take the chance of
waking you up. I also received your message. I had this really weird
dream this
mourning that stuck with me. I dreamed that I was playing with my son
and
he looked just like me. He was a really cute little fella. I had
picked
him
up over my head and put him on my head and at that moment he said daddy
I
love you. He then said you are the best daddy in the whole world. At
that moment I started crying. The funny thing about this is that I
REALLY
was crying and I woke myself up. I have to admit sweetheart that was a
helluva
dream. I was SO happy in the dream that I was pissed off that I woke
myself up. I litterally had to get up out of my bed and go and sit on
my
couch for about
10 minutes and think about what had happened. It was about 4:20am this
mourning. Like I told you before I do not have any children but I was
so
close to
starting a family that it affects me. I really wanted a family bad but
I
am so glad that we didnt get that far now. I am sure that god knew
that it
wasn't the right time
in my life back then to have kids. Boy am glad that I didnt. That
would
have been my worst nightmare. I know you are probably tripping out
that I
am telling
you this but I told you that I am a pretty sensitive type of man and
now I
guess you know its true . As you can see I can talk about anything and
I am
not afraid
to express my feelings or talk about certain things. One thing that I
must
tell you is that you are really lucky. I mean I used to work with
children
everyday for
5 years and there were alot of parents that took for granted that they
had
some really beautiful healthy children. These days hun if your
children
are healthy
and stay out of trouble and get good grades, it says alot about what
type
of parent you are. Alot of parents dont understand that their children
are
a direct
reflection on them. I am giving you your props. I have nothing but
mad
respect for a woman that raises children all on her own and alot of
times
with out ANY
help at all. Damn Damn Damn. Anyway I just felt like talking a
little.
You take it easy and I hope to talk to you soon.