It is so sad that I would feel for you

So much more than a decade of servitude

Could amount to in the end

That I would love you as if tomorrow could

Never manage to change my mind

And so I live just for sweet tomorrow

When you will kiss the scars of yesterday

& for an instant I will believe it will be okay

That I look into your eyes and I know

It isn’t just me lost in this crazy beginning  

& my love isn’t as one-sided as you would have me believe

So I drink too deeply of hope in the moment because

How could I do any differently in this situation

When you hold in your hands the keys to

What I know brings me happiness

Forget all logic, you are the grapes of my wine

You are the high that I love more than alone

And your hands have touched more than flesh

Until I spill over into admitting that I care

It hurts to know that you could make or break my heart

That you could matter after years that didn’t matter

So I lie deep inside my being until I cannot lie to you

And I am here too real and exposed

Only to know that you don’t understand what I give

Or exactly what we might happen to be

But I can handle your hesitation because it only means

You will at least some day gave it real thought

And having been before barely second thought, I can appreciate

The bitter sweetness of being known more than that…