wrote this yesterday when i was sad about the boy that i am not sad about anymore... yay me

im hungry but i cant eat
im sad but i cant cry
im in pain but i didn't cause it
i die but i am still alive
im here but i never really was
smoking camel lights again
feeling the buzz in my head again
foundation wearing thin again
im crying
im dying
i might be flying
to tired to sleep
to tired to move
to tired to keep it all alive
away you go
into the silence
i feel it moving again
away and beyond