This is life sometimes, and this is another day in the life ... of me.
As I sit here, it occurs to me that even though I think about my life and try to make careful decisions, and wait for a answer to ???? hmmmm (appear, mesmerize, where do answers come from?) Apparently I just have thoughts and have repeatedly drawn what I've learned are, premature, groundless conclusions, otherwise how else could I keep missing the boat? What to do, what to do ..... ladies this is why guy's watch sportscenter, again and again. The outcome is relatively predictable, and we can count on it to happen again and again, and it's really good every time we watch it. Kind of like making love ought to be. Face it you're asleep, (it's 06:00am) and if we tried to awake you, that would be a mistake we'd learn about in a "discussion" we'd have about a whole 'nother subject, and be brought up just as we thought we were making headway on the subject we (men) thought we were discussing!
But let me tell you ladies why I would awaken you. I would awaken you, because I rarely ever see you, I know I work a crazy job, I know the hours are insane. Right now would be a good time to remind you, I didn't assign the scheduled, I have to work the hours the job assigns to me, and the bottom line is I'm working to pay bills, and meet obligations, I'd rather be home, and I'd rather we took advantage of the time this job allows us to have away from the job. I'd awaken you, because I want to hear your voice, and I want to talk to you and have you talk to me. I want to laugh about the things "we" think are funny. I want to make plans, long range plans for years to come and plans for tomorrow. I want to hear what you think,I want to know what you know, I want you to teach me what life has taught you, show me how to love you, ... please. I know you told me "some things", but I want to know it all. I know it's going to take time, and patience, and trust. But I want to be the one you finally open up to and let go, give me all of you. Ladies c'mon you know you hold back, because you're afraid. Afraid of what we'd think, afraid of what we might do if we knew you do"that", what we might tell,(yeah 'cause some dumb asses just have to brag, so his buddies will think he's cool, so now that he can't keep his mouth shut, the rest of us have to pay for their stupidity.) Here I am looking hoping and praying for the one thing you can't give me..."you". I mean the real you, the woman that I know you are. The woman that showed herself to that one guy ( remember him... he was wearing a RED FLAG, saying all the right things, doing all the wrong things, you know the guy your girlfriends thought was so cool, but Mom and Dad and family thought was trouble) the one you trusted and loved, and he broke your heart and spirit big time, maybe more than once, probably in the worst way. What was his name? Ladies, if you can actually remember his name, it may say a number of things about you and him, aside from the fact that he doesn't deserve the time and attention you might be giving him, it hinders the time, life, love and relationship you can have with the man that is trying to love you now. BTW where is he? Who cares? He's not wasting time and his life thinking about you. But I'm here, waiting, for now, but not forever. Right now he's nowhere to be found and here I am, damn near begging, let me love you, because I'm not "him", I'm me, and I'm here for you. But hey like I said it's 06:00am and I'm not going anywhere, Nope nowhere at all, I'm just sitting here watching sportscenter. Damn the 'skins lost!
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